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2011-01-30T04:40:00.003+08:00

Came back from a wedding dinner at Mandarin Oriental Hotel. Congratz to the couple.

Btw, after that, i met My friends at cuppage then we headed to ECP because they wanna bowl for awhile. Well, tmr is the competition mah. Tmr gonna be a hectic day cause nid to rush down to Farrer Park area to see they play bowling and then rush down to Tamp SAFRA to support my TW Team play soccer. I miss them alot. On leave tmr so i will see them back on Monday.

Drank a little just now. Tipsy a little. Slept fer awhile in EC's car. Then he send me back home after he send Addict cause my house is nearer to him. Thanks EC. Mok. Dun go back late la sey.... Tmr got big game siia. Hahaha..

Nite everyone. FYI, im kinda back on blog. Just for the fun of it. LoL

CONSEQUENCES OF LYING. I know you never think about it.

2011-01-29T02:10:00.000+08:00

If only you would think of the consequences of lying. And then when people gave you chances after chances, you appreciate it. But you did not. We cant turn back time. But y am i happier with my friends? Cause they dun give me any problems like what you did to me. I just dun get it uh. Da tau buat salah tapi masih tanya apa yang you buat? Mengakal uh. Seriously you dunno how to take someones heart. For me, only your sweet werds would cairkan any other fucking gals out there. But not me. Im different from others. I dun nid a perfect guy to be beside me. I just nid someone who could have a perfect chemistry to me and i would not care who is he in the first place. Its ok then.Its your fault and you are trying to make it mine. Im not stupid. I dun ask for this. I dun deserve to be treated this way. Thanks.

~Nearly Had An Accident~

2009-11-12T17:36:00.002+08:00

Farking taxi drivers have no sign of driving experience that is well-train at any driving centre. Fark them go to hell sia!!!! Pasal this one stupid driver, driving a white merc taxi, just cut me thru the lane, then he not happy, then he tried to cause an accident with me...

MAY YOU GO AND DIE IN HELL!!!

Btw, Ive eaten onli FanChoy today and a chilled sandwich at ESSO.... Im so bored today and i got 4 complaints i guess and 10 summons that i issued for today.

Later gonna ask Khai to go and fetch me and send me back home. Cant tahan siia... I nid to take off the phobia in my mind....

~Finally Typing Away Again....~

2009-11-11T13:38:00.003+08:00

Finally, maybe im going to quit my job. Well, i reallylove my job but the problem is... I know You Know, People Dunno. Im now at the cyber cafe. Typing away my blog... Its been a long time since i type one due to alot of work and busy with my work and career. Gonna concentrate on my werk than my own life. Well, im gonna support myself and my family i hope.

So far, life change.... Times change, people change... Within so few weeks. What to do.. Lupa kan jasa orang than just leave for a new bitch. Hahaha... Satu hari pun kau pun kene prek. Just waiting for the day.

And btw, Kiah!!!! Thanks for the new phone!!! I WUVRE IT ALOT!!!! Samsung Omnia Pro...

Ive been spending time with my friends and my family and im really happy at it. But once i return to werk, its a nitemare. What to do... I have plans up my sleeves... whee...!

Yesterday, saw Peter at the hospital. Haiz... I will be praying har that he will recover. In the morning, he had an accident, self-skidding. Then he was brought to SGH. Then after he recover a few hours, he return back due to heart attack. Haiz... When i met him in the room, he was on alot of wires and he was so weak. Kesian uh tgk macam ni. And the saddest part sampai air mata mengalir is that he is starting to talk about death... (What he says, cant be reveal)

Mudah mudahan he will recover..... I Dont want HIM to lose someone again... anymore... Take care...

PS: I just recover from my injuries.. But it still bengkak.... 01.10.2009 will be the memorable day that i accident at Bendemeer~*

~Bloody Hell.. Im So Tired~

2009-08-27T17:59:00.004+08:00

Today is my first day off...
Yesterday ingatkan ari ni nak ot tapi bangun lambat after lepk with my colleagues at Toa Payoh. Wah duh! Lama dong tak p sana.... Hahaha.... P semer yang tempat kenangan... *trying to forget*

Btw, Me, Ayid, Azlee and Ekin lepak at somewhere around TP. Today, we all bangun lambat seh. Hahah... Me and Ayid tak ot. Azlee dah alik base and Ekin late for werk. Hahahh.... Its raining la seh.. Apa nak buat....

Btw, now i really mish my RO team plaq! The day before puasa, i cook for them Ayam Masak Merah. They are so happy la seh! Hahahaha..... Yelah... Im the onli gal in the team mah. Pampered them with food.... Hehehhe...

Btw, now im going out fer awhile, nak go eat out. Tk puasa seh ari ni. Overshort tito!!!

~Im Beginning To Love My Life....~

2009-08-12T14:44:00.003+08:00

I love myself...
For who i am....
And for those who are trying to bring me down....
Sorry .... I got alot of supports that could really hold me high up...

I was always thinking about something everyday. When will my jodoh come. Hahahha.. Im sick and tired of contacting guys that arent related to me. Cause i really have no idea about them. Senang kata, kurang kasih sayang... Hahahha.... But now, im gonna wait for the right one to come. The person is at my doorstep of my heart. Tapi the thing is, its not fully open.Due to some certain reasons.... Dun worry.... If you push the correct button, my heart will open eventually. I dun nid to be force in love. Guide me thru the right path and I Will Love You With All My Heart.

Today i never go werk. MC beb! Hahahha.. Sakit skit.... Wheee~~~~~~~~

~Rezeki Ku Berlimpah Limpah TIdak Berhenti... Ku Akan Berkata ALHAMDULLILAH~

2009-08-06T21:08:00.004+08:00

ALHAMDULLILAH.....
Itu yang mampu diucapkan....
My rezeki semakin berlimpah limpah....
After my recent promotion to become a RO, I was given another opportunity again to be a TL. Hmmmm.......
But why me? Should i refuse or take up the offer?
Because my Sup,if including me oready, dah tiga kali dier tukar TL. Hmmmm.... Was it hard to werk under him? Or was it....... Ntah laa....
I just got to find out the truth....
Tapi tak tawu laa....
He had helped me to get a decent RO promotion and he told me that he wanted me to become a TL so that i got a better chance of being a Supervisor in the future.... Hmmm....
All i wanted to do is to be what i want...

Memang as a RO, you werk under sun and on the road most of the time.... And that is what i want. I wanted to be in the uniform group since Arwahnye pergi... Ntah la... I make alot of new friends and its like the whole company knows me by my attitude a work (WORKACHOLIC), my reputation (BANYAK SGT SUMMONS), and my friendliness with everyone....

Ntah la... Mama say to stay in out dept.... And i think that i wanted to stay... Im happier being a nobody than a somebody.....

Btw, ALHAMDULLILAH is all i can say... Terima kasi YA ALLAH.... Dan hambamu pohon untuk membuka jalan yang benar di hadapan matanya yang manakah harus ku pilih....

~My Days As A RO~

2009-08-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

Im really njoying my werk... Cause banyak makan gaji buta!!! Wahahahha...
Gaji pun naik, werking hours pun naik.... LoL...
Bawak moto company lagy.....

I now partner with Uncle Raymond, the only chinese and and i think he is the most experience RO in the team. Actually he was kinda fun! Hahaha...~~~~

Today it was so boring. I got my last complain at around 1030am and until i go back at 3pm, masih takder complain. Aiyoh.... So bored sia. Practically i sleep la seh! Hahhahhaa....

I cant wait to get my New RO Id then i can saman on my own. Prefer it that way. And i will be temporary on Morning shift till they BOC one night shift man ad i will be transfer to night shift again! Hopefully i get Tampines.... Miss that place liao...

~Finally The Promotion Im Waiting For...~

2009-08-02T12:19:00.004+08:00

Wheee~~~~
Finally the day has come for my promotion!!!
100% masok RO. Within 2 Months....
Will be making alot of new friends....
Tapi apa pun, dorang pun dah my friends since im a PO...
So werking with them is no hal..
They also was waiting fer me to join this dept long time ago oready and ive finally made this coming Monday....!
Yesh!!!!
K laa.... Btw, ive got two new Reebok shoes, a new N70 Batt plus charger and a dinner with a whole lot of friends at Lau Pa Sat. Burrppp~~~~~ =]

K laa.... Im going to bath now, wash my hair and get ready for a whole new chapter in my life...

~Fark EU~

2009-07-31T15:48:00.002+08:00

JANGAN SAMPAI AKU TAK LEH TAHAN NGAN PERANGAI KAU, KAU BETTER STOP DISTURBING ME!!!! AKU DAH TAK DER KENE MENGENE NGAN KAU. RAHSIA DI TANGAN AKU. BETTER STOP IT OR ELSE.... CAUSE U ARE NO MORE IN MY LIFE SO I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY WITH IT. AND IM HAPPY TOO CAUSE IM READY TO MOVE ON AND FORGET ABOUT YOU. I NEVER REGRET BEING WITH YOU CAUSE IM GLAD YOU CROSS MY LIFE NOW THEN LATER. NBCB!!!

~Yawn.....~

2009-07-31T15:39:00.003+08:00

I just woke up and having a flu!
Damnmit! I nid to buy a new nose liao... hahahhahaa....
Btw, this monday i will be in a new dept and i will be working in the morning.... Aiyoh...
So sian la seh... hate morning jobs.... Hahahaha....
Hope that i will be posted to night...
And i will be around P.Ris....
Not much complain though and they are trying me out at that sector first...
K laa... For beginners la.... Hehehhe...
Let me try to biasakan diri as an RO then i think i wanna request back to Tampines.... Awww.... I will miss them alot.

The good news is that i will be under Man again. hahahaha....... That is better cause he knows i werk. Even if he wanna audit me ke apa, he knows that i will be there on time like the last time he audits me.. Bluwekk!!!!! Try ur luck !

My hand still in pain la seh.... What the hell! Gonna see a doctor soon. Bawak motor pun sakit sakit.... Cant really genggam my tangan... Hope nothing happens. Hate eu!

K laa... I think i wanna buy new shoes.... Wheee~~~~

~Farking Cock up uh SKRG!~

2009-07-28T07:37:00.003+08:00

I finish my werk and then i go back to mit my friends....
Everything cock up today... Tapi tak mengapa... I dun want to say anything tapi what i can say, BIAR ORANG BUAT KITA, KITA JANGAN BUAT ORANG.... LoL

So just wanna tell you guys that i am not going to be A TL after all due to the length of my werking in there, but im going to RTU... Whee~~~ If i never go here, i dun think that i want to werk in this company anymore cause everything dah cock up since the partnership starts. Im gonna be independent and that is the way i loike... Hahahha....

Even if things were to cock up, i just have to bear with it cause tak kita tak orang. LoL....
Im going to werk my way to the top..... Just give me a few more months then i shall be what i wanted.

Man have left the company and i dun think things gonna be alrite. Might as well i rather back out now then never. LoL... But im gonna eye on a company... Only certain people knows about it. Hahahha....

Im now at someone's house, waiting to be back at my bike.... Miss my bike so much.

For today, ive ate laksa instant noodles and one chicken pau. Yummies!!!!

K laaa.... Im gonna relax now and look forward to the future... Whee~~~~

~Im Farking Bored~

2009-07-26T20:10:00.002+08:00

=======SMOKE========
Satu hari tak isap rokok. LoL....
Yesterday i went to chalet... It was damn bored..
Alik kene hujan... Like what the hell.....
Btw, im bored..
Farking bored... Argh~~~~

~Ive Been Promoted~

2009-07-25T20:47:00.003+08:00

I finally update my blog... Wheee~~~

Just to let u guys knw.... Ive been promoted!!! Yay!!!!

From just a patrolling officer, im in-charge of them now, as a Team Leader...

I actually wanted to be in the Respond Team Unit, tapi there are some problems to it....

My superivisor tak kasi me go be RTU cause its a men's job. They ask me to sit in office better. Hahahha.... The whole office voted me in! And this is all due to hardwork and determination..... Phewww~~ Nasib baik sey bersabar dalam company ni....

I cant post that much.... Im going to chalet tonight.... My team anniversary....

Will update you guys!!

~Just came back from werk~

2009-07-07T09:15:00.003+08:00

Haiz....
It always happens like this...
Everytime i login to my tag, i saw those msgs....
Ive been framed real bad this time...
Its disastorous.....
Why must it happen to me?

I dun do those stupid stuffs....
And i dun thing i have a point to do that since i dah malas to entertan it anymore.
Orang mata merah, selalu macam ni....
Before it started, also got problems.
Wen it started, lagy problem...
Then i tot when it ends, it is over...
But that was just the beginning...
Haiz...
Korang tak leh tengok orang senang ker?
Why should you guys make our life so suffering???
Pls stop all this nonsense laa... i beg of you...
Lilin dah tak nak gaduh ngan saper saper laaa....!!

Tot that we could get our lives back...
Cause im willing for another go...
I think after this, i dun think there will be...
HAPPY TAK KORANG THAT IM NOT WITH HIM ANYMORE ARHHH!!!!!!!
AMIK ARH!!!! IF I CAUGHT THAT PERSON FOR MAKING OUR LIVES MISERABLE, BETTER FUCKING WATCH OUT!!! Pasal that, we really lost forever... Thanks for whoever you are out there.... Hope that you are happy with what you are doing!

And untuk dia, please siasat dulu before menuduh. I kene macam ni pun, i tak tuduh you just like that. Haiz... That is why i put private. And then you think that i would talk about u. I dun see a point to talk about you anymore. And that is why i stopped. I dah malas nak gaduh! If we are together, then we are... And if we are not, i redha... But i was seriously shocked that it was that easy to find pengganti eh. Haiz...~~~ Nothing to say... Cause that is your life....

You hate me, tell me in the face. Its hard to forget you just like that. That is why namamu masih di motor ku. But if u want me to peel it, then tell me to do so. Scared that ur new gf would be mad. And also, if there is nothing between us, please return my belongings to me. Just this, and i will be gone from your life once and for all. No more tears for me to pour down my cheeks. All left was wonderful memories and hateful fights. Thats all...

So gals out there yang ingin sangat memilikinya, have your way. I totally have no comments.

*~But still in my heart there are pieces that are still hanging for you to come back....~*

~No Comment~

2009-07-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

!COME BACK TO ME AND EVRYTHING WILL BE FINE!

2009-07-04T21:52:00.004+08:00

Smoking...
Having a bad time oready..
Felt the pressure...
Never had i wanted this..
Tapi tak mengapa...

Btw, semalam jumper Bem kat tmpat kerja dier. Amik bende (adalah...). Then the other gangs semer turun. Freekz, Amalina, Yanstar, Rara, Nadz, Fady, Apeez, Syafiq, Winnie, Winky and Khai. Ribut seh... Didn't know dorang turun. Went to werk late. Tot off taking off tapi kena ot. Zaman carik duit guys. Apa nak buat. Gonna do this till i confirm. LoL. Kerja keras now oso i dunno what to do. Maybe gonna save up for a bigger bike. Plans to settle down dah cancel.

So later, gonna werk and werk. Save up a few hundreds per month and maybe at th end of the year, go holiday with my friend. Maybe gonna make a stop to Bali. Wheee~~~~ Insyaallah.

Im gonna fly~~~~~

~Never Ever~

2009-07-03T21:48:00.003+08:00

Never ever have i cheated on you cause im totally scared....
Cause i really love you....
My past doesnt really matter for me...
But i never regret about my past...
Cause its a lesson in life that i should go thru and learn it as a mistake..
Humans make mistakes and they will learn from it...
And i admit that loving you wasn't a mistake..
Its part and parcel of love life and i never regret loving you and losing you in the end.
I know what went wrong and i never ever cheated on you.

For whats in my past have done damage to our relationship.
And for you believing in it was shocking.
But what am i gonna do?
You want hot news, get it from them.
But like i told ya, its my past and u knew it.

You have a past too and i dun really care.
But try to be a better person in the future will done wonders.
You guys never gave me a 2nd chance to change, but you guys could have it.
Whats fair in it?
Oh yar....
Humans....
Human beings.....
They cant see us happy and wouldn't want u to be.
Cause they have none!!!
And when other human beings are totally happy, you guys come in to destroy....
Its ok...
Di hari kiamat yang akan datang, you will see whatever im doing...
And its Love that i did....
I do it all out of love...
Its okay if u havent notice it.... Cause they are clouding your visions all so well...
Im not good in psycho-ing people. They are..
So all the best....

If you do believe in them, and not believing your love ones, so be it.
I cant do anything cause im weak at it.
I believe that whatever i did in our relationship does nothing.
Maybe i didnt werk hard enuff for us.
Btw, whatever it is... choose your decisions wisely....
I never force nor did i never respect your decisions...
Sayang...

LOST! FED UP!

2009-06-29T20:02:00.002+08:00

This will be the third post for the day.

Farking hate my life right now.

Gonna be a better person.

After all this over.

It hurts so much to get assume by your love one.

Cause i always think he is my hubby.

I am too weak to do anything.

No farking mood to werk.

Farking mad at hw our life.

Nothing will gonna change what i say..

I was so lost cause i didn't know that we are gonna be this way.

At my first post today, i thought that everythings gonna be alrite.

I just figure it out whats wrong...

And i have dispose and forgive n forget abt what we went wrong.

Tot of meeting him to solve our problems this coming friday.

Cause i decided to take off.

But well, maybe i just werk Off ot then.

Cause i got nothing to do on my off day.

Wont be logging in to my tagged often now.

If i do log in, its to buy my pets back and log off.

Thats all...

=End=

~I dunno why~

2009-06-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

Menyesal?

Izzit?

Never had i menyesal untuk terima nya.

Me? Happy?

I tink you got it wrong.

Me playing with people heart?

That is what you assume.

Thanks.

Be happy.

You never trust me.

I carik duit untuk kesenangan kita!

I guess i shouldn't have werk hard anymore.

No nid to OT anymore.

Just pack my things and everything done.

If u dun nid elmo or Ms Setan, just give it back to me.

Followed by that cute thing that lights up ur room.

I will be looking forward to your mails in my tag.

On when you are free to give it back.

Then i will not be disturbing you anymore.

You will have your life back.

You wanna add gals that you say that is ur frends gal or what. I dun rili care.

Cause i have done my part on not to flirt around.

My bike still have your name.

Cant bear myself to peel it off.

Take care.

U and ur life that loves to assume me.

You didnt know how much i love you.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

Bye.....

~Damn So Tired~

2009-06-29T19:29:00.003+08:00

Its pouring rain outside...
I miss hys hugs... Cause when he hugs me, i feel the warmth and the comfortness in my life...
Haiz...
I feel so cold...
Lost without hym in my life...
I may acted strong... But i nid him...
But what to do.....

By the way, work yesterday was like hell..!!
I OverTime from 3pm - 11pm,then continue 11pm - 7am..
Overall, im just tired..
Havent take a single off day since i started werking on 1st July.
Mama and Papa bising cause i havent had the time to spent time as a family at home.
I guess they just missed me at home...
Cause i spent my time at home since last September. And never werk since then till now.
I overworked myself to overcome my problems.
I think that is how i overcome myself in this life.
To make myself busy and to get myself real tired then sleep.
Havent really eat since yesterday.. I just bought myself Nasi Lemak in the morning then i slept.
But still i find it hard to sleep.
Dunno why..................
==========SMOKE============

Just now Man call me for another OT. I told him i couldnt take it cause im too tired.
But i felt like going.. But my eyes just totally shut off.
Maybe after Man's reservist then i take OT. Cause kalau that HAMTARO jaga kita orang, cock up siak! Hahahha..
I was so fed up yesterday with someone. Macam nak lempar EHT kat muka dia..
!!!KAU SEBAGAI LELAKI, NAK KERJA SENANG AJER. SHAME ON YOU. WE GALS WERK LIKE HELL AND TRYING TO COVER PEOPLE UP ON SAPER SAPER YANG TAK DATANG, KAU MACAM BUAT BODOH AJER. PARTNER KAU TAK DATANG THEN TAK TAWU NAK INFORM. MACAM NBCB!!!

Tonite will be hectic, as well as for the next two weeks. Me and Liyana trying to cover Man's duties so kita nya zone tak hancur. Hope that he will be back soon and get our things back to normal. ~~~WE WONT LET YOU DOWN OKIES! HAVE A FUN TIME AT RESERVIST! HAHAHHAHA~~~

K laa..
Its pouring still..
So cold...
Miss ya.

PS* Yesterday, got two mat kereta nak kenal kenal. Mentang mentang korang ada kereta, SO WHAT! I just tell them off that im not interested. Hahaha... You guys should see how their water face drop! Cheap guys.... Offering their numbers just like that *

~Loving parents that i have~

2009-06-26T19:40:00.003+08:00

These few days, ive been going back from werk and cook..
Entah laa. I find cooking stress-free.
Btw, yesterday i got a call from an employer.... They wanted me to be a MANAGER. Wow!
I couldn't believe it...
Ntah plaq eh... Should i quit at my current job and take up this offer? Hmmm... See how first.

Btw, tadi balik ada orang yang tak kusangka terserempak kat Shop N Save at my house...
Its been a long time we never meet or chat up due to possible reasons...
I was shocked! Totally shock. I was speechless too... LOL...

K laa... It will be days till Man will be going to reservist and i know that things at werk will be cocked up. Me and Liyana will be taking over him temporarily cause i dun think no one can do it. So i will pak my bike kat base and then take car to do my patrol.. Wheee~~~~
Man will be back on 17th July 2009 maybe and i hope that all of us survive without our team Leader. Sekali what if eh, all of us cannot tahan, sekali Man alik reservist and find all of us quit eh? Confirm dier pun ikut sekaki seh nak quit. Whahahha~~~ Confirm kecoh!!!

Ive been not riding my bike for quite a long time due to possible reasons. Miss my bike. Hahahha...
Ive been leading a normal life like everyone else. I grow mature and think about my future. To save up money and lead a stable life, not a posh lfestyle. Just wanna settle down peacefully and have kids. Struggling is not in my dictionary in my future so im getting use struggling now. I dun mind people telling me that i forgot about people in my life cause they would not understand. Sampai bila kita nak hidup sengsara and never strive for anything? So as not to further pressure myself, i just put those thoughts aside and continue to strive in my career and my future.

Im no kid anymore to use my parents money to live my life. I use what i earn and still give a little of my salary to my parents. Like what old people use to say, "Sebelom nak gatal nak naik pelamin, kasi cukup makan kat orang tua nyer dulu. " And i agree totally cause they give birth to us susah payah and now to repay back what they hav done to us thru out these years.

I love my parents so much!!!!

~Escort Team Double Trouble~

2009-06-22T21:03:00.002+08:00

Escort That Happen On 21/06/2009

~My Life So Just Trying To Be Myself And Do Things MY WAY~

2009-06-22T20:26:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys.... Long time tak update blog. Been busy with werk all nite and day long. Im trying to like focus on my job only cause it is the only thing that makes me live. So far werking life o good except ada skit misunderstanding. And i dun think that would even solve. Hahaha... What is the best solution? Is to BUAT BODOH! Ahakz!

By the way, yesterday i came late for werk. I woke up around 12!!!! Macam siak kan! Apa tak. Sunday i went for escort. It rained a little but i did manage to turn up cause takot kene marah mah. But very dissapointed, onli one car and three bikes turun. Yang lain buat excuse, pi tgk Is kat hospital. Adoi. That one can meet later after the escort mah. Macam siak aje. Tapi well, biarkan lah dorang. Asalkan dorang happy with what they are doing...

Ok... Today is a new week and new carpark sector to start! Ni kali, me and Liyana kene kat all the multi story carpark. Ni yang mengerikan. Tapi tawakal mau lebih. I think we are gonna be okay, since the last week carpark macam siak... Takder cerita... Hahahha!!!

TM34 MAU PEGY!!!!!

ahakz!!!!

Orang tertentu ajer faham code werd tuh... LoL...

By the way, getting ready fer werk... Today gonna be a new day fer me!

~If We Are Not Meant To Be Together, Then We Are Not. Im Tired Of Forcing Myself~

2009-06-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

I just woke up..... Ari ni ali base lagy. I think everyday i go base. Smlm lupa nak kasi DPA kat Raziman. Pagy pagy dia call. Masih orang nga tito seh tuh. Yang Si Raziman tuh tak balik balik kaper? Hahahha..... Boleh plaq DPA tak kasi. Gila kaper Lilin. WAKE UP!!! JANGAN KHAYAL!!!

Btw, i dunno why semenjak menjak ni, Lilin rasa begitu rasa gelisah and so stress. And i dun think its about werk.

Haiz...

It had gone way out of course. Never ever have i imagine to feel this way again. Cause i tot that i had carefully plan out my life. But regrets are felt right now. And i wish i never had felt this way.

My life have been from bad to worse. And im lost from there. Wish someone could help me. I will be glad. And appreciate it alot. No one really knows my feelings. No one that i ever share cause im scared. I dunno why i bottled up my feelings. Why have i been this way? No one really knows cause no one cares.

Arrgggh!!! Forget about that. Tonite werk, then bley luper kan semer benda yang berlaku. It hurts like hell.

~Werking life is what i like~

2009-06-18T20:35:00.004+08:00

I just woke up. Today i go base.
I heard that Pasir Ris is going to take me back to their sector.
And they want me to start today.
Is just not fair.
You guys use to put me in Tampines, where i am totally happy with the people there.
Liyana says that she is not happy that i will go there cause i am her partner. And she wants to quit if i go Pasir Ris. Hahahha... Berpakat kaper beb!
Then Lela pun say not to go there. LoL.
Kita bertiga plus Lela's hubby n adiknya tak leh berpisah uh. Kita zone 2 Tampines, the 5 of us, tak leh berpisah. Hahaha. Macam setan siak kita! Tanduk kuar, siap arh satu satu...
Tapi lanun mau lebih arh!
Hahhhaa....

Really happy to be at Tampines Zone 2. Is such a great thing to be posting at Tampines. Tak menyesal. Walaupun kerja peh penat, tapi we had fun!

I shall miss you guys if i were to change department. Tapi maybe i try to talk to Cik Kassim about going to station at Tampines jugak. Bley jumpe korang agy siak. Hahaha...

Btw, hey guys! Check out my new posting at youtube!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXjnWRLA_TI
Please do rate and comment.

A song.... For u guys to remember if im gone from this world...

2009-06-16T20:05:00.003+08:00

Hidup hanya untuk sementara....
Kuatkan semangat untuk hadapi segala gala keadaan dan perubahan....
Semua tragedi terjadi, mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya...
Semoga kau akan terbuka pintu mata mu itu...
Sebelum ku hembuskan nafas terakhir ku di dunia yang fana ini.....

My Blog Will Be My Life Chapter That You All Could See How I Live My Life. So When I Would Be Gone One Day, My Life Would Still Be Here, For All To Read, To Learn From Past Mistakes, To Act Carefully In Life And Make A Wise Decision In Life. For Me, I Have Not Make One Right Decision That I Make. Every Single Thing I Do, I Act In A Quick Rush And Never Think Of What The Outcome Might Be.

===Dunno Today Why So Emosi. Forgive Me Of My Actions===

I still remember what my friend told me the day that she accompany me to go to Changi Hospital, on the day that my ex pass away. " Do you know that if someone wanted to be gone, he or she will act differently? And these signs would show for the last THREE MONTHS of his life in this world? That person that wanted to die wil feel it too." (Memang he changed but i felt it a few days before he pass away) This saying were from my friend by the name of COFFEETOON (her nick), Or Her Real Name is DIANA. Miss her truckloads.

And the next quote was from a colleague, from CHUBB. Her name is Kak Rozy. She told me that kalau orang mimpi. gigi dia jatuh, MAKNANYA, ada orang akan mati. ALLAHUALAM. Tapi sekiranya korang korang ada mimpi gigi jatuh, bilang tau! Hahhahaha.....

Tarikan Nafas Terakhir

Kini saat yang terakhir
Ku pinta maaf kepadamu
Jauh dari lubuk hatiku
Tak pernah ku dendam padamu

Bila engkau tak percaya
Ku rela korban jiwa raga
Kini saat yang penghabisan
Ku harap kau datang kepadaku

Berulang kali ku nyatakan
Aku sayang padamu
Berulang kali ku meminta
Peluklah belailah daku

Oh.... Itu tak pernah terjadi
Semua harapan belaka
Nafasku yang terakhir ini
Hanyalah ku tujukan pada mu

~Today tiring~

2009-06-15T18:20:00.002+08:00

Everyday is a tired day/nite fer me. I just woke up. Today why i nid to wake up this time cause im having my practical at BBDC tonite. Then after that straight to werk. I nid to finish my practical before raya. But sorry MAMA. By raya i cannot pass i think. Cause i havent book my TP! But i try to pass it by the end of the year then we can go jalan jalan okies?

Just now after werk, i went to MAMA shop. I told her that i nid to settle everything cause today i think i nid to do it before i have no more time next time. So off i went to the motor shop cause my brake fluid dah takder langsung!!! Macam soyal. Semalam 2T habis, ari ni brake fluid habis. I dun have any brake depan at all for yesterday! So dangerous sia. No wonder i always skidded cause pakai brake belakang banyak. And no wonder brake belakang slalu haus dulu. Hahaha... Then i went to BBDC to book for tonight. Ada cock up skit la cause today they just launched a new and upgraded website. So cool cause i get to choose my feveret group instructor. I hope that he dont scold me cause dah lama siak tak pi practical! Hahaha. Then after that i went to bank to withdraw duit from my savings account. Darn it. Bila nak dapat gaji nih....

Then now im eating Yogurt(HUNGRY!), and missing my Larlink and now nak siap siap cause nak go practical!!! Smsed Liyana in the morning that i came late cause i got practical. She said no hal and i will meet her halfway i hope. Yesterday when she came late, i go and do T17 alone and i got 24 saman for both of us. It was FUN! This week,me and Liyana got new sector. Hahaha... Mau siap arh sana nyer side. If the both of us dah jaga tempat tuh, habis la kita melanun kat sana. Hahahah...

FANANA, later i saman u arh.... Hehehhe...

LARLINK! Miss ya. Take care. Wifey nak werk hard hard! Hehehe.. =]

~AARrrggghhHHhhh.....~

2009-06-14T14:53:00.005+08:00

YA ALLAH!!!!

AKU RINDUI DIA!!!!!

HAIZ.......

*~Woke up... Feeling all alone in the world. Missing hym so much. No words can really describe the feelings. And does he feel how i feel right now? The emptyness and hollow feeling in the heart without any love to give or take? Make him realise that im only for him like the new song that he compose fer me. I never get the full song cause i dunno how to download it. Haiz.... Im feeling so empty~*

~Why Seh?~

2009-06-12T18:24:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, i got a bad dream. I was killed in an accident bike and i lost my life on the spot of the accident. And i became a ghost. And i cant believe that i died already and i was like trying to prove to human beings that im still alive. In th end, i end up scaring them. I think that is why they came to haunt people eh. Allahualam la kan.... It feels so true.

Then when i told Kak Rozy about this, she told me that Lilin panjannnnngggggg umur nya. Iye ke? Alhamdullilah la kalau macam gitu. And now i really ride a little bit careful than i use to. Hahah!

By the way, yesterday when i was doing my rounds, I was being scolded by three guys yang kena saman. They have aready done the offence and they said that i saman anyhow. FARK THEM LA! Next time, bukak mata besar besar then see the board before going in the carpark and park.

PLEASE BEWARNED EH PEOPLE. SEASON PARKING DONT EVER PARK. LATER KENE SAMAN VERY VERY HEAVY. CAR = $50 MOTOR = $25. IF CARPARK NID TO USE COUPON, PLEASE PUT EVEN YOU GO OUT AND EAT AT COFFEE SHOP. CAR = $30 MOTOR = $8. AND DONT EVER TRY TO BE CLEVER AND PUT AT DOUBLE YELLOW LINE, LOADING/UNLOADING BAY OR HANDICAPPED. GO AND FIND SOMEWHERE ELSE TO PARK. CAR & MOTOR = $100. DONT BE A STUPID ARSEHOLE AND ASK US TO CANCEL. BETTER GO AND APPEAL.

I dun really understand at this arab guy which scolded me for fining him. He was arguing at me, and then he ask me, " U a Muslim? " I said Yes and he answered" La Illah Ha Illallallah ". So tell me, im a muslim and i should give another muslim another chance? You gotta be kidding. Im not a one-sided mudderfarker. My country is a multi-racial and i am not a one-sided bitch. Whether u are the same race as me, or different, u have commit the offence, you will get a summon. So do things right before you get another ticket of you guys stupid own mistakes!

~MY SUEY NITE~

2009-06-11T16:59:00.003+08:00

Ok... This is the first time that i took pictures of myself in uniform. Tak pernah Lilin sangka Lilin akan kerja ni. Tapi rezeki dah kat sini so just kerja je lor. By the way, yesterday when i was doing my rounds with my partner in crime at work, Liyana, something happen sia!!! Macam nak kene rembat ajer apek tuh..

It happen like this. Liyana semalam tak bawak kereta so we take bike la. As per normal la, kalau dia bawak kereta, i no nid to take car with her. Kalau tak, she will be my pillion. Then yesterday, Liyana kata takmoh bawak moto la to go to the nearest carpark from our meeting point. Cause kita jaga daerah dekat dekat meeting point kita. First we go to T72, then after that T73 because it was a walking distance. Then skali she go and saman taxi. Sana memang banyak taxi cause ada kedai kopi. Tak salah per kau letak $2.00 coupon then kau nak lepak sampai pagi pun boleh laa.

So dia p la saman and we need to wait for 11 minutes cause it is not a season parking carpark. Then after that, si apek tuh kata dia nak p beli suratkhabar. FIKIR LAA. KITA KASI DIA MASA UNTIL 16 MINUTES JUST TO BUY NEWSPAPER TAPI TAK PATAH PATAH ALIK! Dia nak tipu tipu kita. So Liyana dah print out the saman, skali taxi driver macam NBCB, dia bukak pintu then letak hazard lights. Liyana pun kasi dia saman arh..

Yang pelik nye, taxi driver tuh yang tak buat hal. Kawan kawan dia yang macam NABEY CHIBAI! Dia dah memekak memekak kat Liyana, then when he saw me, dia pun memekak2 jugak. But he go overboard. Dia dah pekik2 dia lagy bley sentuh Lilin arh. Then Lilin kata, "Eh! Don't touch me arh!" Dia tak happy arh!! Dia kata dia nak sue Lilin. Macam NBCB lagy. Dia kata anak dia Inspector Police. So dia p panggil police turun arh.

"HELLO! POLICE CAR ARH? COME DOWN HERE ARH! THEY SAMAN ME ANYHOW ARH!"

Tak ke belo nama nye tuh? Dia suruh police car turun, bukan policeman tau. Wahahha. Then i call Raziman. Dia kata blah ajer. Abih dorang kepung siak. Macam nak kene potong kita. Then Raziman kata anything just give the police his number if they want. Then police datang, police pun macam malas nak layan, dia kata suruh appeal sudah.

Then Man call me again to ask us to wait. I tell him arh wait for us kat meeting point. Kita dah bingit nak tunggu sini. Macam NBCB. Then Man turun then dia settle kan seme then he ask us torelax and continue saman. Kita continue saman tapi not in the mood arh. Haiz.... MACAM NAK LETAK JAWATAN 24 HOURS!!! Hahahhaa.... Tapi wait arh... I wanted to go to another department... Hehehhe.... Lagy gerek!

Btw, apek tuh pekik2, satu block turun... Just for a $30 saman. That was his fault what? Macam soyalz kan.... Haiz... I beginning to hate taxi drivers alot for thier Reckless behaviour and Reckless Driving. NO OFFENCE TAKEN! SAPER MAKAN CILI, DIA RASA PEDAS!!!

~Updates Of My Bike~

2009-06-11T16:42:00.003+08:00

This pic i took was a week ago, before my first nite shift. Macam soyalz kan!! Tail light jatuh!!! Tanyer kat kedai Auntie, satu ni $48. Saper mau layan. Dia kata dia leh kasi $30 then pasang sendiri. Lilin kalau pandai takper jugak. So hantar la moto kat HL Motorcycle kat Paya Ubi, blakang Cisco building. Tu pun nasib hantar kat sana. Dia kata no stock at first and sanggup seh dia pinjam kan dia punya cause i tell him tonite is my first nite of werk. THANKS ALOT!!! Then on wednesday i tukar the new one. Tapi not as nice as this. Tapi apa nak buat. Takper la. Sementara ni tak cantik cause capital blom masok. Wait till i got enuff capital, then i fix back my bike... Wheee~~~~~

*~I Still Keep The Tail Light. Buat Kenangan Soyalz~*

*~See How It Ended In The Centre Of My Bike~*
*~Nasib Nothing Happen. Ni Pun Realise It Was There When I Inspect My Bike Kat Kedai Auntie~*

*~Wanna Know Sumfin?The Tail Light Jatuh When I Was Riding It To Bendemeer. Didn't Know It Was There. It Scratches My Tyres. Darn It~*

These are the updated stickers that i pasted on my bike. Actually dah letak since weeks ago. Tak pernah seumur hidup Lilin, letak nama sapa sapa until i found Larlink! Love you!

*~ He Loves The Colour Green~*

*~I Love Pink Colour~*

~No Comments~

2009-06-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

IM HAVING A FUCKED UP DAY!!!!

NAK SIAP AND GO TO WERK.......

BETTER THAT WAY...

MY LIFE NOW EVOLVES AROUND WERK ONLI.....

~My favourite Song~

2009-06-09T18:55:00.005+08:00

Erra Fazira

Seandainya kejujuran ini
Tiada lagi tertera di hati
Kurela undur diri
Di kemuncak impian yang kugenggami

Tak ku sangka gerimis melanda
Ketika kita hangatnya merindu
Bagaikan tiada duka yang datang
Namun kelopak berderai

Bukan simpati yang aku pintakan
Cuma ketulusan di hatimu
Bukan alasan yang mesti kau lafazkan
Untuk menegakkan cinta
Seolah sengaja
Kau persendakan kasihku

Biarku derita, biarku sengsara
Asalkan tiada kekesalan
Meskipun ku cinta sepenuh hatiku
Namun tak berupaya didustai oleh bibir
Yang berpura

Seandainya kejujuran ini
Tiada lagi tertera dihati
Terpaksaku melangkah
Walau hatiku kan terluka

~Im Really Serious~

2009-06-09T16:53:00.004+08:00

TO ALL....

IF ONE DAY, YOU GUYS CANT GET ME THRU THE PHONE....

OR THRU TAGGED...
OR THRU MSN.....

THEN I GUESS IT WAS A GOODBYE THAT I COULDNT SAY FOR THE LAST TIME....

NEEDLESS TO SAY, IM THRU WITH LIFE.....

IM GIVING UP......

~So Tired~

2009-06-09T07:31:00.002+08:00

So tired....
Damn tired....
Werk fer a week with no day off...
Its what i request for laa...
Cause if i do really nid a day off, i ask from them....
But now, i guess i nid to stabilise myself.....

The other day, i got lots of problems in my head and was thinking about it on the road and you know what?

I nearly hit the back of the taxi cause the Mudder Farker just stop on the first lane to take those people. Can u imagine me and my bike skidded all the way? And i was late for work!!!!

Gosh.... These taxi drivers nid to go for their refreshment course every 6 months!!! So that they can really understand what and what not to do.. Farking asshole...

I dunno why i feel suddenly so pissed off.... Issit the MONTH again? Oh no...

Haizz..... Nid to wake up an be alert on the road.....

Or else i wont be able to open up my eyes again... But i think that will be better off... Haizz...

Btw, today saman total 74 with my partner... Hopefully we get to naik pangkat soon... Naik Pangkat, Naik Gaji, Naik Stress.... Semer Naik...!

~Im So Busy & Love Hubby Alot~

2009-06-05T14:02:00.006+08:00

Just got back from Larlink's place after my nite shift.

Been like few weeks never meet him.

Jahat kan Lilin? But what to do....

Busy werking.... Carik duit kahwin kaper Lilin??

Hahahha....

Today when i check my tagged and our shared friendster account, i was so happy!!!!

He edited our pix until so nice nice!!! Hahahhaa....

Free time banyak eh Larlink? Hahahha....

Sorry tau ive been busy werking dear. I oso never take off day uh. Tapi i try k to take off day..

Just for us.... Both onli....

Mwah!!!

And to all my friends, especially FREEKZ AND AMALINA!!!! SIAP korang.... Korang ada kereta ke moto sendiri, siap Lilin saman...!!! Wahahhaa..... Dun go East Area... That is my area... Wahahhaa... Jahat siak Lilin...

K la... Just wanna say to hubby, please take care of yourself. Jangan go jogging banyak banyak. Later you fall sick again cause u blom baik tau ni!!!! Risau i!!! Hehehe....

ILY ! IMY ! MUHD SAIFUL BIN SHAHARI

~First Nite At Werk~

2009-06-02T20:39:00.001+08:00

It was fun but tiring and sleepy.

Was suppose to go to Larlink's house but was too tired.

Sorry couldn't make it....

But i will try next time.....

Going to work now...

Yesterday i saman with my partner, 21 vehicles....

Lol....

~Got A Job Liao~

2009-06-01T06:11:00.004+08:00

Yesssss Arrhhhhhh!!!!!
Got my second interview for the place that im going to work on Saturday and i got it!!!! Whee~~~
Ive collected the uniform and it has been made a slight adjustement cause the uniform is damn big, even i took an S size for the Top and size 28 for the pants. Damn it... Should eat more... Hahaha... That was what my mum says.

So guys! The other day i tried to interview at Certis Cisco but couldnt get thru cause dorang nid more MALE for the job. The quota for FEMALE dah no have. Sedih skit uh cause i badly wan tat job. Skali the other day i went to tis company and got it!! You guys wanna know what company? It is called Chubb. Wheee~~~ Saman saman illegal parking jugak. Under Enforcement Officer. Hehehe.... Ill be also wearing my uniform. LoL. The bad thing that i got to find out is that i will be bringing my own bike and im a perm Night Shift. Adoi~~~ I will just try. Faizal, my asst Supervisor says malam gerek and ask me to give it a try cause 2nd Shift dah ada orang amik and its full. So what to do. I get the job and just werk hard fer it lor. And i hope i got OTs. Seminggu buat 2-3 OT dah cukup uh. Hope i dun over work. LoL. And i will be posted at East Side. So BEWARE!!! Hahahha....

So i will be starting on 01/06/2009, which is tonite. WHeeee~~~~ Today i think i wil understudy and hopefully i can get the hang of it. Jadi Lanun.......!!!!!! Wheee~~~~

~Spending My Time With Larlink~

2009-05-14T01:10:00.001+08:00

Yawn... Shall be sleeping soon. Went out with larlink then we ate at Lucky Plaza.. And guess what!? We went to that naughty shop.. Hehehe.. Naughty of us. Then we went back then we buy rokok then now gonna sleep. Larlink waiting for baby to finish playing computer. He must be bored. Wahaha.. Syian Larlink... Sorry dear.. Finishing up!

~Will A Friend Always Be There For US?~

2009-05-13T12:14:00.003+08:00

Spent most of the time at Larlink's house. I began to wonder. My handphone all went silent. As if i have no friends gitu. Hmmmm.... Wonder what happen to all my friends? Will they come to me only when im needed? Haiz... It all started just so suddenly i guess. Kenapa ya? To those who are called my friends, dun mute urself laa. Mana kata kata yang dijanjikann dulu, walaupun kita bergaduh tapi tetap berkawan? Adakah itu hanya kata kata semata mata untuk sedapkan hati ku dulu? Then now? Haiz.... Its what i called, hanya kata kata manis yang dijanjikan dahulu. Semasa mereka susah, aku lah dicari. Semasa hidup mereka sunyi, aku yang dicari. My status doesn't affect our relationship tapi why you guys make it like that? What did i do wrong till korang semer macam ni. To see korang smile at me pun susah. What is that i did wrong?????

SEKIRANYA LILIN ADA MENYAKITI HATI KORANG, ATAU TERKASAR BAHASA, ATAU BERKURANG AJAR, HARAP MAAFKAN LILIN. TAPI OUR FRIENDSHIP MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. REMEMBER THAT!!!! I NEVER WANT US TO BE ENEMIES OR THINK THAT IVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT MY FRIENDS. I DID NOT! I JUST MISS YOU GUYS. HAIZ... YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND ABOUT HOW MY LIFE IS.

~Had Fun With Larlink~

2009-05-08T02:12:00.003+08:00

Burn came to Larlink house. Dia lah sekarang tukang kejut kita. LoL. Then kesian siak. He waited for us until we wake up. Kesian seh dia. Tu la. Nak sangat kan datang. We were both so damn tired. So we are both so sorry tau! Hahaha.... Argue with Larlink cause i suruh teman me go back my house. GOOD NEWS PEOPLE! I already renew my insurance and im back on the road for good!!! Whee~~ Then finally he follow me. We went to have a date and LUNCH at Pizza Hut. Yummies! Larlink also dah lama tak makan so we ate the outlet around his place. Lagypun dah murah seh. Apa lagy... Then after that we proceed to my house. I printed out my resume cause tomorrow nak go interview! Hehehe~ Hopefully i get this job cause so exciting job. And fun too, i guess. Sana pun ada kawan. So stay tune to find out where im going to work. Then after that, we went to petrol station to pump my tyres then we proceed to Larlink's house. Cause we are going to his Atok's place. Then after that we dunno where to go. So i decided to go to ECP.

Kita plan nak tengok laut tapi you know what? Skali i saw that place where people put in a dollar then we catch the toy. So kiyut! First i tried to tangkap this little toy. Then tak dapat. Me so sad. Then skali Larlink tried his luck and he got it!!!! Lilin so happy seh!!!! Hehehe. A cute little creature (Pic shown below). Then we decided to venture out other place for that machine again. Skali ada seh! First i tried to get tapi tros i gave up. Then i saw a couple main that thing and they got it! Lilin cam nak nangis seh!!! Larlink hug me then say to watch them how they do it. Then i watched. Then the couple also gave us tips and tricks to it. Then Larlink say, " Bby, i want that one." So i told him that im going to get him that cute elmo (Pic shown below) for him. Then the couple also helped me. When the toy dropped, i was shrieking and shouting and jumped for joy! Finally siak, after $30++ and i got that! Even though people will say i siow and can get that toy at a cheap price kat kedai, this is much more worth cause you tried very hard to get for someone that you love. Whee~~~~ Then Larlink so happy when he saw me happy. Hahaha.

Then we decided to go for supper. At first kita say nak go Bendemeer. Skali Lilin peh bodoh, terlajak. Hahaha. Then we decided to eat at Kopitiam around Larlink's place. I ordered Fish Soup Noodle and Larlink ordered Prawn Noodle. And you know what!!!??? They put BABI inside. Larlink macam hampa gitu. Then he say takper cause dah order pun. Then i told him to buy others then he said takmoh buang buang makanan. I saw Larlink face betol nyer hampa. I felt so bad seh tapi Larlink sooooooo degil that he ate it. Haiz. But he never ate the BABI la. He put it aside. And as for me, the bau of the BABI was like ewwww~~~ Then i we both no mood to eat. Larlink ate and then he vomit out in the toilet. Then i told him to go back jer la.

When we reached home, i went inside the toilet then i vomit out also. Haiz. So sickening. Then Larlink is frying jemput jemput Chincalok for us. Awww~~~ So suwit of him. Then we terletak banyak garam. Hahaha~ I know it will be masin. Now Larlink is still frying and he also once in awhile tengok jugak what im typing. Hehehe.

Saiful, i got Elmo for you! Kalau bby takder, please hold Mr Elmo tight tight k? Just imagine that itu Bby. Hehehe. Mwah~~~~

Gonna sleep soon. Tomorrow got interview~~~!!! Hope i get it! Wish for the best aite guys!

~A Past Is A Past~

2009-05-07T00:37:00.004+08:00

Finally i just finish kemas bilik Larlink. It was so dusty! ahakz! Sorry dear but your secret is out! LoLz. But i manage to kemas our bilik until it became so tidy. Hhehehehe. Larlink gave me a drawer to put my clothes. I feel like that i have become part of his family just before a month together with him. Lolz. And for your info, i am close with his family within two days and they manage to like making me part of their own blood and flesh. First of all, on my birthday, on 16 April 2009, Mama Larlink cooked for me. And then Abah call me just like his own daughter. And Larlink's kakak yesterday gave me clothes that she never wear anymore. And Larlink Brother In Law is ok with my Team Motor. So great kan? And then i met his relatives and nenek at Airport while sending his cousin overseas. Phew~~~ It frightens me alot that it all happens so fast but i made it!!

I ransack Larlink's room and found a whole lot of bullshit treasures. I found farking love letters and Larlink ask me to throw it away cause it means NOTHING to him anymore. Evrything of her things we have thrown and i don't think we miss out anything. I can't imagine what she did to him and cause poor Larlink to be trauma to be in love. Cause all of his ex nye perbuatan, Lilin yang kena. Lolz. I go through alot and well, i manage to be patient. But patience selalu ada limit. We even ignore her messages that she gave to Larlink cause the more we layan, the more pain in the ass. Hahahah!

I sweeped, mopped and just susun everything in a nice and proper way. I don't think his ex could do much more better than how i took care of Larlink. Semer kata sayang. Tapi cuma hanya kata kata sahaja. Lilin akui that sometimes i can be a hassle to handle but Larlink knows how to cool me down. And walaupun tuh, Lilin manage to treat him like my own husband. Cooked for him, took care of him and even manage to like treat him when he got injuries. Not to missed out our late night "Fun" together. Hhehehehe. Never miss a single moment of it and we both enjoy it everything we have done. Although that we fight, biasalah. Relationship mah. Takkan korang pun tak faham. Hehehhe...

Yesterday morning, it rained and we went out and walked in the rain. Totally Lovebirds. And we go to the kopitiam to eat in the morning. We went back and then we slept. Hehehe. Macam ular siak kita dua.

Remember yesterday when i wrote down that i am making Muah Chee? It didn't work out. But i will try to find the recipe and then i can do for Larlink.

Later maybe Supper, im going to cook for Larlink Prawn Cereal. Hehehe.. Larlink tak pernah try but i will help him to explore his tastebuds. Hopefully that i got the energy to do it. Cause me kinda hungry too. LoLz... Larlink now is playing guitar and singing lagu TIADA LAGI. He keeps on practicing without giving up. Thats good dear!

Now, im going to join Larlink to bed and give him a big kiss....!!!

*~Tomorrow's event: Go to Thompson to do my insurance, go back home take my bike and meet Abang Achik, A.R.T TW cause the other day tak turun meeting. Confirm kena marah. Bayar duit fund and helmet if enough money. Then go back with Larlink and maybe we are going dating!~*

*~Friday's event: Go for interview at Paya Lebar. Hopefully get it!~*

*~Saturday's event: Go celebrate Mama birthday and Mother's day at Jurong West NTI, rumah Cik Ani and then at night, go have fun with Larlink's family(kalau jadi).~*

*~Sunday's event: JAMMING!!!~*

~Recipe goes wrong i guess~

2009-05-06T03:04:00.002+08:00

Im trying to make muah chee in the middle of the morning. LoL. Its raining here in Larlink's house and luckily i dah bawak masok my "baju" that i hang out in the galah outside our room. By the way, just now we went to Mustafa Centre and we went a little bit of shopping. We bought kakak nyer blusher cause dier kirim, vodka glasses, weighing machine for that darn muah chee kueh and bought oso one plum juice which is still in my bag and 37 degrees can of drink. It tasted just like H20. Its a thirst quencher. Then after that, we went jalan jalan and we walked till Bendemeer to take bus back to Larlink's house.

Before that, ada kecoh kat Toa Payoh. Then ada sikit fight ngan Larlink and then what i heard that dia belasah ngan India mana ntah. Abih Larlink face kene punch. So kesian. Got blue black oready. Then before that i went to Cecil St to do my insurance. Then skali they say that i nid to go to Thompson to do it. Then kecoh uh... (Wish no further to elaborate on what happen but i know from tomorrow i can ride my bike).

Now here i am, waiting for Larlink to habis eyak and my muah chee dough to cook. I hope it turns out uh. Larlink dah feveret muah chee because of me. Hahahaha.... He ate alot seh and what i know that one day he would turn chubby like POOH!!!!! Wheee~~~

Thanks to my cooking for him everyday that he would turn just perfectly fine. Hehehehe.

Luv u AbyPutra aka Muhammad Saiful Bin Shahari!

~A Note For That Someone~

2009-04-29T00:18:00.003+08:00

JUST WANNA SAY TO THAT SOMEONE EH. PLEASE DON'T DISTURB HIM ANYMORE CAUSE HE IS MINE NOW. YOU ARE HIS OLD STORY THAT HE HAD LONG FORGOTTEN. SO JUST MOVE ON WITH THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE WITH. JANGAN GANGGU HIDUP KITA BERDUA CAUSE IT WON'T AFFECT US AT ALL. BUT A WARNING. IF EVER I SAW A MSG FROM U, I WILL CAUSE A SCENE. I DUN WANT US TO BE ENEMIES. SO MOVE ON AND BE WITH UR PRESENT LIFE. THANKS.

AND TO ALL HATERS, NOT HAPPY, FACE TO FACE. CYBER JER BRANI, KAT LUAR, BUAH PELIR KAT TEKAK.

~I Don't Even Care~

2009-04-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hey there guys!
Well, thanks Fanana my dearest gal for backing me up. Yalor. Dorang tuh kan jeles la. What to do. Nanty kalau lilin kata that dorang jeles, nanty nak step peng story. Don't really understand those haters bertopeng. I give no damn to them. Jaga tepi kain orang tapi kain sendiri terburai! Wahahha...

By the way, im at Larlink's place. Dia nyer comp dah ok and i get to update you guys. Hehehe. Larlink is watching cerita Cina feveret kita. Tadi we watch youtube and then we are watching videos of the group Nitro and Herman Li playing the solo. Gerek la seh! So talented seh dorang. Larlink also the same. Wahahha.. One day i wanna play like him also.

K. Tadi i drop at Braddell and he fetched me from there. It was raining and really hate it. I took a taxi la seh. Arggh!! When i will have my bike back. Maybe tomorrow. Wheee~~~
Then i met Saufi and the rest. Play a little bit of guitar and went to Larlink's place. Kakak cooked for us Ikan Pari Panggang. Yummies!!! Perah ngan limau. Sodap la seh! Then we went to Toa Payoh Central to take bus to Parkway Parade. Then we jalan jalan. Then bought a few things then we went back. We sempat pergy pasar malam. Then i buy Masalodeh for Mama and Abah and i bought Keropok Lekor for Larlink. Dia tak pernah makan keropok Lekor! Hehehe. Before that we went to arcade and play some games. Kita main shooting games macam nak patah tangan. Wahahaha. We also shopped at Shop N Save.

Then ni pun aru buat wanton DIY nye. Hehehehe. Then here i am! Typing in my blog entry. Hehehe~~~

Love larlink so much! Mwah!

B, WALAUPUN ORANG TUH HENSEM MACAM MANA PUN, MEMANG I AKAN PANDANG TAPI HATI I KAT U AJER. BEAR THAT IN MIND. I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. MEMANG ORANG BUSUK HATI TO SEE US HAPPY, BUT IF WE ARE STRONG TO GO THRU THOSE OBSTACLES TOGETHER, INSYAALLAH, NOTHING CAN STOP US! =]

~Guys Are The New Bitches!~

2009-04-27T22:31:00.004+08:00

Yawn....
Just came back from my larlink's place.
He was so suwit yesterday.
Btw, i cooked for him that cili french fries and he love it!!!
Hahaha....
He wont go hungry with me cause i got lots of ideas to cook when he is hungry.
Then we watched cerita Castello.
So damn sad and gerek!
The next morning, i was suppose to go for an interview but i an larlink bangun lambat.
Damn... LoL.. Maybe tomorrow i go lor.
Then tomorrow i want to go many many places..
And then maybe go larlink's place for movie marathon...
Whee~~~~

Btw, eerrrr, to all haters yang bertopeng. No use la kalau korang nak felad my tagbox. Cause it doesnt cause any pain to me. Kene pakai eh? Tu la.. Kau jaga aku pakai duit. So The Salah. I dun nid money. I just nid Pure Love. MONEY COMES IN SECOND.Wahaha.... So To all the guys out there eh, kalau korang fikir aku pakai korang, then u guys are wrong. Cause u and i takder pape lagy. Unlike me and Saiful. We have confessed out our true feelings and we really want to be with each other till the end. Hey haters, show ur true colours uh. Ur REAL NAME ke? Pengecut gila babz uh. Dont Entertain. Even people who would read my blog also will say the same. Harap ada buah, buah kat tekak. Wahaha... Didn't even know that there are guys macam jantan kelepeh. Drop guys nye status siak! Wahahha...! SAPA MAKAN CILI, DIER RASA PEDAS.
OR EITHER, FACE TO FACE WITH ME THEN WE TALK. KAN SENANG. PASAL KAU TAKDER MUKER NGAN AKU TU PASAL KAU LETAK KAT TAGBOARD. WAHAHHA... SHAME ON U!

~Me And Darling At Marina Barrage~

2009-04-16T08:32:00.005+08:00

*~Its Fun Being With You. You Are My Life <3>

BAM BAM <3 WAWA

~My Birthday Day Goes On~

2009-04-16T07:31:00.004+08:00

I just came back la shey from darling's place. Was suppose to go back but was too tired. I also left my guitar at his place. Malas nak angkut alik cause letak sana senang jer citer. In the morning we went to the Airport with his mama to sent Izat, his cousin go to Brunei for a year. Then my friend, Farhan A.R.T pun pi sana jugak. They are going for a year but they will be back around October for a short break. NS leceh seh. Then Izat nye gal cried cause they are not going to see each other for a long time. Awwww.... I feel like crying also. Then after that, me and darling go and eat at Terminal 1. Damn! I miss the food there. Then after that, darling macam really out of place seh. He never ride the train at airport. LoL. And he is so kiyut gitu. Then i told him that i gonna bring him to a place. Then he asked kat ner. Then i say ikot jer la. So we took a train at Changi and dropped off at Marina Bay. Guess where we go? MARINA BARRAGE!!! Hehehe. Darling never go to that place before and he also lagy out of place. Whaaha... I never go there by public and that was the first time. When we board the shuttle bus, ingatkan darling out of place sorang. Skali ada lagy satu mat pun tak pernah pergi! Hahaah...

When we reached there, i scared that darling tak suker the place. Dier bukan tak suker! Dier lagy feveret tempat tuh! Wahahaha. Then i tell him that that place i only bring someone special ajer. Not anyone i can bring there. Memang dulu pernah bawak lain but i tot that i akan lama ngan orang tuh. Tapi tak kesampaian. Takdir mah? So darling and me walked thru the gallery and he was like so kiyut gitu! Dier tak pernah jejak tempat macam tu and he was so happy! We took alot of pictures(Later will be updated!).

Then we sat down and smoke. And he said that He Love Me So Much. And i tell him that too. Both of us had the same way of thinking. Previously, both of our lives had been missing something. Even though we use to be happy with other people, we are still missing something in our lives. Until, we found each other that we realise we are the missing pieces in each of our lives. People knows me that i am the type of gal that is hard to fall in love, but when i met Muhd Saiful Bin Shahari aka AbyPutra, everything change. Thanks darling for making me believe in love. No one did show love like you did.

Btw, for today's plan, ill be going to BBDC for my car practical, after that mit my mama and go and eat, then go to Bendemeer to renew insurance, and then malam go darling's house. His mama is cooking for me! Hehehe. His parents ROX to the core! Love them so much! And i love my Darling Bam Bam.

~Muhd Saiful N Emielia~

2009-04-14T15:50:00.001+08:00

*~Love For Us Had Never Been Easy. I Know You Have Been Waiting For Me For Almost TWO Years. I Appreciate That You Sabar. I Didn't Know That You Still Have Feelings For Me. And Im Glad That I Masok This Band And I Got To Know You. Its Fated This Way That I Meet You This Year. Last Long Dear With Me. Muhd Saiful, I Love You So Much. Let People Say, Let People Hate Us Cause Nothing Can Drop Us Just Like That. 12 . 04 . 2009 Is The Date That Brings Us Together. The Place Where We Saw The Moon So Bright Is The Place Where We Both Exchange Words Of Love For The First Time. Love U Baby~*

~Really Don't Understand What People Wants~

2009-04-14T14:50:00.003+08:00

What do they want seh? Asal seh dorang macam mata merah ngan kita berdua. Just wanna tell you guys that im now happily attached. Me and him memang banyak dugaan untuk bercinta and after we succeed, we still face alot of obstacles jugak. Insyaallah kita akan menempuh segala dugaan dan terima segala gala ini dengan tabah hati. They dont even know what is going on and they wanted to spread all bad things about us? Haiz. To All! Why dont you guys be happy for the both of us? Why cant you just doakan yang terbaik? Instead korang matikan kita seh. We dont expect anything except for you guys to appreciate us for who we are. We are both sorry if we hurt anyone around us, but we both really love each other and wanted a better life in the future. If any of u guys feel offended about the both of us, we hope that you guys accepted our apologies.

Btw, semalam i was on the phone with my sayang. He teached me songs thru phone. Imagine that. And its fun! LoL. Chat with him till late then skali dier nyer phone battery flat. LoL. Then he said that he will call me back later. That was like 3 Plus. Then after that he put down the phone then i go and cook Maggi Goreng. Then i was waiting for his call. Still none. Then i tried calling his handphone. Maybe he sleeping oready. Then after that i KO.

In the morning, he wake me up. Then he said that he is sorry that he never called me. Cause he was tired. LoL. Me and him were too tired seh so yesterday we both sleep alot. Hahaha... Tak ingat dunia. Then after that i edit some pix and check my tagged. Im now waiting for his calls. Haiz. Btw, im going to play my guitar again!

*~Cinta perlu banyak kesabaran. Orang sabar tak rugi. By the way, i hope that we will last long. I wish no one else but only u. Its hard for me to fall in love but now when im with you, everything seems so perfectly fine, even though there are alot of people who are really not happy the way we are, stay strong sayang. People dont control our lives and we dont control them. Remember when you say that "Izzit wrong for me to fall in love with you?". I tell you this dear. Its not! I love you dear and i will always do. I will keep you always in my heart and will always bring you up when you are down. Count on me dear, i will support you till the end. If you finalise the decision quitting the band, then i respect it. But between us, the love we had shall stay strong. Mwah B! Lia sayang kamu!~*

~What Should I Do Rite Now~

2009-04-10T07:06:00.002+08:00

I just came back from some where....
Im just so damn lost...
Should i?
Shouldn't i?
WHy should i be the one that sacrifce my happiness for someone's else happiness?
Why couldnt i get the happiness that i wanted?
There are so many questions that pop up in my mind right now.

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SMokIng MenTHoL MArLBorO

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To feel love and pain at the same time has been always in my life. And i tot tat it stopped. But in fact, it just begin again. Ive made up my mind. I leave it to fate. Whatever decision you make, it shall be yours forever. No turning back this time round. After all, You are Who you are. And I am What i am. I shall not make things worse. And complicated. I know i aint' perfect but i try to make urs perfect. Im sad to see things happen this way. But i will be happy to see if you are happy. No more wasting of our precious time... Especially urs. I know i cant have my way of livingc cause i now know my purpose of living.... THat is to save people lives from jeopardizing their life because of me. My role in this world is to make people around me happy. Now i know my purpose. Being me is a very difficult. That is why i dun wish people to understand myself. Its hard, cause in the end, u all tried to understand me sampai leh jadi tak btol.

In my heart, there is always a place for you. Only for you to come in the right time, right place and right situation.

No worries. I will always be happy.

Oh.. And yar... Btw, im looking forward about progressing about the band. Really proud to have band mates like u guys. I shall try to find some more places for us to perform. ASSASIN!!!!! LIVE LONG!!! Walaupun kita ditimpa banyak dugaan, we shall stay strong for the band....!!!

~Bad Day~

2009-04-09T22:49:00.003+08:00

As i slice thru my flesh with a knife on my wrist.....

The pain in my heart disappears slowly.....

Blood dripping from my wrist as the cut is deep and thick....

Lost quite a lot of blood....

But my heart still can hold the pain....

To be cheated....

To be ignored.......

THanks.......

As you came to talked to me, you never hear the pain in my voice...

The pain in my eyes...

I totally lose it....

You saw my hands that were dripping blood from the wounds.... and you told him...

Kecoh.....

Totally kecoh.....

Ive given up on my life...

Gave up in everything......

So, im truly sorry if i change.....

Cause the pain is still here.....

Till the day that i shall be yours, that will be the day that i stopped everything......

Rite now, im in pain...

~It Was A Success~

2009-04-06T06:05:00.003+08:00

Just came back from the As A Sin gadering. Im the one that ask the budak budak to lepak tonite cause i got a big project to do! And I tell you i tell you i tell you (braper banyak dah), it was a success!! WHeeee~~~~~ So happy..!!! Sampai tak terkata! Wahhaha

First i bangun lambat. Aby As A Sin woke me up at 4pm. He called me alot of times. LoL. Then i msg him, i wake up oready. Skali i sleep back. When i woke up, it was 5:15pm!!! I am meeting them at 6pm!!! Hahahhaa... Then i siap siap, print chords, pack my guitar and my beg then leave the house.

The bus was so slow seh. I reach there around 8 plus. Then after that a few hours later, Khai call me up and asked me where i am. I told him i ngan budak As A Sin then i asked him, he got vehicle ehk? Then he said yes and he will be there by 20 mins. Then we first went to Punggol 17. Then i intro the song to Aby. Then we tried a few times. Aby got it alot of wrong words but he learn well. So proud of him. Then after that, we went to Yishun Dam. Nak buat recording kat sana tapi too noisy with alot of cars and motobikes. (Buat darah up jer dorang bisingkan moto dorang). And then we proceed to Mandai. Then finally we can record. He played the lead Oh So Well! Wheee~~~~ We succeed in our first take and Zax As A Sin said it was well done. Me And Aby got the perfect voice with each other. Wheee~~~ Then after that, around 4 plus we proceed back home. First send to Toa Payoh, Then Geylan Bahru then Pending. Then after that Khai send me back home last as per normal.

Im so happy that it was all successful. And im so happy and also....... sad because of something. Haiz.....
My life is complicated but now, hopefully, things will change....

~Let Go Of Me Peacefully~

2009-04-04T11:54:00.001+08:00

Having a knife at heart point will be my last resort. U bastard. You are one bloody bastard that i ever meet. And with friends who couldn't shut their own bloody mouth. What have they gotta do to jeopardize my life?Dorang buat taik,aku diamkan ajer. Korang nye suar dalam uh. And as for you, you farking bastard.I did love you and even wanted us back after i looked back at the things we have established. Tapi Kau maki aku, salahkan aku kerana perbuatan bodoh kau tuh, maki mak aku semer kan dan fitnah aku banyak kan?? Ey brader, lu blah pun cantik. Kau tak tawu citer sbenarnya, Kau dgn pemikiran kolot kau tuh, ko jgn ganggu hidup aku laa. P ngan perempuan lain pun aku tak kisah kerana aku tawu perangai kau bukannya bagus sangat. Kerana tipu helah kau, kata kata dan janji manis kau buat aku menyesal sungguh aku berkenalan ngan kau. Kerana kau, aku tutup kembali pintu hati ku ini. Jantan Sial. Tak habis habis ganggu hidup aku. Free time banyak per? No wonder dulu perempuan2 kau blah dari kau. Ruper ruper nyer kau yang perosak....

~Why You Have To Do This To Me~

2009-04-03T08:18:00.003+08:00

We Could Be The Happiest Couple Alive~~~~

But that was what we use to be..... Im totaly sad...

The last fight we had was on the phone where you betol betol ragu ragu tentang i. Whatever i say, u told me it was a lie. You prefer to choose to hear the other party's story instead of mine. This is the presents u gave to me before birthday? Thanks i should say.. Thanks alot.

You went out 4am in the morning. You told Uncle you wanted to use the car because you wanted to meet me and settle things out at the Marina Barrage, the memorable place for us to go. Uncle let you cause he don't want us to be sad and fighting all the time. You have no license. And you are on a probation. You told a lie~~~

You picked up those gals and you also went to Bukit Panjang to pick up the guy that have feelings for me, and the guy that told you a lie for not meeting me cause he just dun want to make you mad. He is a total gentlemen, but not you. And then you talked to him, about everything and even nak berpakat dengan dier to forget me and gave up on me? Was this your game on being the guy that couldn't get me and then the others cant get me either? Haiz. And then you told him things that you shouldn't and you promised me that those secrets are between us? Haiz. You lied. You broke our promises.

And then you told him that i got many guys? Tell you this, and to everyone. What is it like to feel always to be push away and the love one told you to get out of his sight? You move on right? And i did. I went back to the guy that you went out yesterday. I went back to him. Got more closer to him cause you didn't want me anymore. And then you finally realise your mistake and then came back to me. I accepted it and gave you a chance. The second time you did that, and the guy that went out with you also pissed me off, i went off in search of a new guy and that is when i did. He is the guy that calls me sayang in my msg. And then you wanted me back again, pleaded me, and yes, i accepted you and chose to ignore the new guy. Trying my best to figure out what was the best way to let him go, you found out the msgs. Yes. I was wrong. And im the one that push him away. Just for you. And then, we have fights after fights. U lied, and go out without my knowledge. I was furious. Yes, i did treat you badly because the way i was treated by your actions, and all those complains and naggings from your family members because of you. I was furious. EVeryone asked me how i ever cope you. I said it was all patience. But my patience is wearing thin. You went out and then went to a girl's house which you told me you don't contact anymore. And then you got into an accident. No wonder i don't feel the rush on seeing you. Cause there is something not right with what you are doing the previous night. Yes you may call me heartless but well, everything's fair. You make a mistake and prefer to lie and you get my attitude. Puas kan jumper perempuan tuh? So don't blame me for my actions. After all, on that day it was raining heavily and i was damn sick.

I never knew that you would do this again. I should have known that you wont come to me, and find me, to get our problems solved. Instead, you went out, by using my name. I was framed because of you. Im hurt by your actions. And yes, we arent a couple yet but alot of things you have done to me.

I just came back with the As A Sin guys and BP guys. Someone called me and tell me everthing. I broke down. Bai was there to console me. And then someone tell me more things about you and then more and more. Each one of them told me alot of hurtful things. I broke down. Bai was there still to console me. I told him to go away. I needed time alone. I was confuse by your actions. I really dunno what to do. And then i tried to just like ignore everything and i just have fun with the gangs, took vidz and pix and then went back home.

Your picture, the one which you gave to me on Valentine's day has been always on my bed. Your dog tag which i always wear for my safety, the ring i never once take out, the pix on my handphone which i claim i didn't have, the jacket which i hang on my cupboard, everything i lay down. I listen to the song Bunga and listen to the lyrics which sang,"Bunga beri aku. Satu kesempatan lagi. Jangan sampai ku mengemis padamu. Bunga ku berjanji. Kali ini akan ku tepati. Kerna aku lelaki". I kept repeating that. Where are your words. Where are you in the first place.

Memang simpan dendam dan hasrat benci. But what to do. You remain the way you are, making me hating you. Tapi tak mengapa. You wanna psycho all the close people around me, go ahead. What i know from you, you tak jatuh kan maruah i. Haiz. All those are just words. Takperlah. I have done my part and so do you. As for the guy that you went out with, haiz, i have no comments about him. If u would like to add on all those hateful words to him, u may do so. If that makes you happy, then please feel free to do so. Ive given up on everything. We have come to a misunderstanding situation and whereby you din't do anything to make things up to me. And me, ive walked away and thats my fault.

May you be happy and content with your decision. May you be safe with your love ones.

I shall try to hold back my tears~~~~~~~

~Fighting And Crying~

2009-03-29T15:27:00.006+08:00

Alot of things happen today and i wish to delete it in my life...
Can i do that?
Hope so....
Btw, just wanna share a dream with you guys...

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I dreamt that aku nampak banyak mayat. Body parts all over the places. I with ngan budak A.R.T nga explore. And i was with a guy which i don't have any idea how the face looks like. We were watching at how the caretaker handle the bodies. It was not fresh. It was rotten yellow skin, which you can see the eye sockets so deep. Masa tu lilin tak dapat rasa takot. I felt like ive seen everything in the world. And again, i saw more body parts de-attached itself from the body. I felt like vomitting. I cough and i vomit alot of blood. The colour is dark red going to black. I don't feel any pain at all. And i vomit again and again. The unknown guy helped me out. He pulled me out from the place and saw streaks of sun rays. After that i manage to breathe the fresh air and stop my vomitting of blood. And everything before my eyes turned white. And i couldn't see anyone except for myself around there. Suddenly i woke up with a sweat on my forehed. I wonder what the dream really mean. Anyone care to help e figure it out?

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So i really nak tahu makna nye cause when lilin woke up, lilin macam into daze gitu....
And im so lost. Not a very good day fer me. When will it turned out good?

KAU KATA KAU TAKKAN MASOK LAGY, TAPI KAU BUAT. SKRG AKU DAH TAK NAK MASOK CAMPUR HAL KAU LAGY. SAKIT HATI AJER AKU NAK DENGAR KATA KATA KAU. KAU NYER KATA KATA CUKUP MANIS.BOLEH MUNTAH SIAK. GO FIND A STUPID GAL FOR YOUR GAME, NOT ME.

~PLEASE LET GO OF ME. DON'T SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME CAUSE YOU DON'T REALLY MEAN IT. I HAD ENUFF OF UR LOVE METHODS AND GAMES. ILL NEVER BE THE SAME GAL YOU ONCE KNEW CAUSE OF UR DOINGS TO ME. PLEASE, YOU ARE MAKING GO CRAZY. I WILL SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN I DO REALLY MEAN IT THIS TIME TO WHOEVER THAT I LOVE. SO DN KIP ON ASKING ME CAUSE YOU ARE JUST NOT FOR ME. ~

AND AS FOR THAT SOMEONE ELSE, JANGAN NAK MEMANDAI. U NAK STEP EMO THEN MAKE ME FEEL BAD. HAD ENUFF UH FOR UR STUPID LIES TO GET AWAY FROM US. ABIH KIREKAN WHEN U SAID THAT, IM HAPPY TO HEAR LAA. STOP IT XIA. JANGAN BOBAL TAK PAKAI OTAK!!!!

~YOU WERE ONCE MY GOOD FRIEND. NOW I CANT REALLY DESCRIBE WHAT OUR FRIENDHIP MEANS. THERE'S NO ENDING OF FIGHTING FOR THE BOTH OF US. YOU ARE TOO EMO MY FRIEND AND I REALLY CANT SHARE ANYTHING MUCH ABOUT MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH YOU WANTED TO KNOW. CAUSE I KNOW I WILL HURT YOU IN THE END. SO PLEASE, IF YOU CANT TAKE IT DUN ASK WHY IM SO DOWN. DON'T THINK THAT U CAN HANDLE MY PROBLEMS. I JUST MISS OUR CLOSENESS WHEN WE WERE LIKE LAST TIME.~

~Im So Damn Sleepy and Tired~

2009-03-29T15:27:00.002+08:00

Arrgghhh~~~

I just came back from the Pelesit escort. In the morning, i came back late and then wake up late. I wonder how i could wake up from my handphone nye vibration. Miracle! I guess Iznie A.R.T p baca baca kot? LoL. I woke up around 9:48am and i janji budak budak at 9:30am. Adoi. But manage to wake up and then siap cepat cepat.

I naik K4 my dearest cousin and it was rather tiring riding as a pillion. LoL. Fikir dua kali seh nak amik moto besar ke tak. I guess i stick with driving. LoL. Then went to Teck Whye to meet the rest of the members and then we proceed to Punggol. Sesat skit tapi manage to find. I never bring my bike because....... Adalah... Wahahhaha.... And then it was damn so hot seh.

Kita sampai ajer, kita sapedek. Then terserempak ngan JuniorJoker!!! Whee~~~ Lama seh tak nampak dier. Dia ikot team ehem ehem... Hehehehe... And then we proceed to Simei to take the bride. Then on the way back to the Groom nye side, u know what!!!! I saw that STMF son-of-a-bitch and the bitch herself! Arrgghhh!!! I tot he never came, his farking bastard tuh! Then after that i just buat bodoh and then i tell Iznie, "Tu ahh. Moto Spark kaler putih plate FZ. Pembastard." DULU KAU NAN AKU, KAU KATA KAU SAYANGKAN AKU, KAU NAK TINGGAL BETINA JANDA TUH YANG BANYAK MAKAN DUIT KAU. TAPI IN THE END, KAU YANG BASTARD AKU. PUKI NYE JANTAN!

Tapi no hal. Lilin sabar jer la. I heard he is still not happy with his life. Biarkan je la. Then after that me and Iznie A.R.T alik. So tired. Lagipun budak budak nak go see Kuda Kepang at Jalan Bahar area. I dun think im going cause i have a gadering at Civic. Speaking of that, i think i nak rest fer awhile. Then siap siap then baru go Civic and meet the kaki gerek gerek. Wheee~~~

*~No more stress life fer me. All now i wanna say that i just wanna take a break from everything~*

~Just A Story~

2009-03-25T17:34:00.003+08:00

LET ME REPHASE MY SENTENCE TO SOME THAT MACAM PAHAM NAK ACT SIAL NGAN AKU.... TO PEOPLE THAT TAKDER OTAK UNTUK BACA AKU NYE BLOG, AND THEN MACAM PAHAM NAK STEP EMOSI NGAN AKU. KALAU KAU DAH BENCI AKU, BY ALL MEANS LAAA. KAU NAK CHECK HP LA, NAK STEP JGN LELAKI BAIK TERHADAP MAK AKU N NAK BALAS BAIK, KAU GO AHEAD. AKU TAHU THAT AKU LOM READY IN A RELATIONSHIP AND DGN PRANGAI JANTAN YG TK ABIS ABIS SAKITKAN HATI AKU, PLS LA. KAU ASYIK NAK BLAH KAN? AKU DAH MALAS NAK STOP ORANG YANG SAKIT OTAK! SIAL KAU! MERANAKAN HIDUP AKU TAK HABIS HABIS NGAN PERANGAI KAU!
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Hey guys... Sorry lama tak update my blog. Nothing to say and im beginning to get lazy. I have something to ask u guys for solutions la. I really know nothing about what to do but i kinda dreamt about this happen. Hahaha.... People, really need your solutions.... ( eLO.. BACA BLEY? KAU JANGAN NAK STEP FAHAM! BENCI UH! KAU BUAT LAGY UH PERANGAI SIAL KAU KAT FM UH! NANTY KAU BUAT AKU MALU LAGY! )

~~~~~~ Imagine that this ever happen to you......
You and this guy that you are dating are having some problems in life. You are so busy with other things and tot that the guy understands your situation. So one day, you call himup at his house and found out that he isn't home since afternoon. You got worried cause he always calls u up whenever he wants to go out. You call him up cause you want him to join her to lepak tonite. Skali you still havent got any idea where he go. So on the nite itself, you and ur other friend on the way to the place. And then, you suddenly feel hungry and wanted a cup noodle. Then when your frien drove you to the nearest petrol station, your friend said, "Eh! Look! Isnt that guy that you are dating with is holding another gal's hand?" You looked out the window and asked your friend to stop. And you walked towards him and shouted for his name. He immediately let go of that farking bitch and then go towards you. He acted in a way that it is not his fault. You wanted to cry but you hold back. You wanted to punched him but you love him. All you heard him saying," Do you realise we are drifting apart?" , "She is my friend's gal. There is nothing between us" , "She is just consoling me". You felt very weak. You turned and walk away. He never chased you back. This is not the first time that you given him a face. He used to cheat you and fark your friend before. And still all he do was to stand there, and walk away to join his friends.
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Hahahaha.... Lilin merepek! Lilin cume nak spice up lilin's blog because im so bored. Tapi ingat, cerita ni kalau it happens to you ke apa, i dunno arhh.... I just tgk kesian perempuan perempuan zaman sekarang kene prek ngn ramai jantan. Think they got looks, got vehicle or harta, can just swipe off our feets? naahhh....!!! Guys just don't understands what a gal needs. If trust had been betrayed, earn back their trust, even though kau kena rabak ke apa cause u deserve it because of stupid things you GUYS do! And kalau dah tak suka ngan dorang, just tell them off! Tak perlu nak kasi we gals caught u guys red-handed and then kasi alasan semer yang tak munasabah.

Afterall, this month we celebrate Women's Day. So respect us ladies or we will give you a farking damn time!!! =p

~One Tiring Farking Day~

2009-03-22T08:33:00.003+08:00

I darn forgot that today i got jamming session with the aS A Sin. I know i couldn't make it. Lagy nga hujan!!! Aiyoh. Terrible day. And then tonite was the nite that we went to Bellzone, to see the place where we are performing. So i tros mit Bai aS A Sin, Zax aS A Sin, YanStar aS A Sin and Aby aS A Sin kat Outram. I took the MRT pun leh sesat xia. Rabakz giler. I even tak pernah heard of MRT station Joo Koon (I think so). Jakon beb! Then da jumper dorang, mit the rest kat daerah tempat Bellzone. Then we go there, and we survey the place. It was nice and cozy. A great place to start to market our band. We discussed about the things...(Cannot go in details....)

Then after that we went to CCK to lepak and kip on discussing about the band thingy. Then after that, we mendak. So suggest that i took the guitar from rumah Khai then bring back there. I go with YanStar aS A Sin and Bai aS A Sin. We bergerak before 12 and we reach around 3. Tak peh jauh tuh. Khai followed us back to CCK. You guys wanna know, my leg is aching darn badly and it is still right now? Aiyoh. Penat giler beb!

So we waited for our first bus then the rest took the MRT. I walked to Teck Whye to take a straight bus to my place. At first, i walked in the rain. So cold and wet. Dah tu taqper. I miss the bus. Then after i dah naik bus, then tito teros terlajak. Bley sempat mimpi xia tito dalam bus. Then i walked back to my place, buy breakfast Masala Dosai then now im eating while typing. Semalam betol nyer exercise giler. Now i nak energise skit with food. K laaa.. Im so tired. Wanna finish off my bfast then sleep! Nanty nak go Suntec City!!!!

OI!!!!!

2009-03-21T04:42:00.004+08:00

TAKDER KERJA PER NAK KATA LILIN NI DA ATTACHED!!??
GET A LIFE XIA!
WHY ARE YOU GUYS ARE DOING THIS TO ME??
~Im Still Single Yet Unavailable To Anyone~
RIGHT NOW, I JUST STILL SEARCHING FOR THE ONE FOR ME...
SO PLS, DUN MAKE ME HATE YOU....

~I Missed Getting Love And Giving Love And Be Loved By A Lovable Person~

2009-03-18T01:33:00.003+08:00

I woke up late yesterday. I was suppose to wake up at 1030am. Then i bangun at 1pm because i got a telephone call. Then i woke up and call PGC. Lol. Hahaha... (Who the hell is PGC?) LoL. Then i met PGC kat bawah block and i tompang motor dia go to Serangoon to renew my insurance. Skali when i go there, the person say AXA don't accept 21 years old and below for anyone that nak beli sports bike insurance. Mengamok seh. And then NTUC nyer is like $800++. Peh mahal. So i asked the Nyonya to go and give the nearest AXA building so i can just go there and talked to them.

We sesat skit tapi PGC pandai tgk road. So clever of him. Then we go there, skali they also say the same thing. Aiyoh.. Then i tell them uh i come next month on my birthday. PGC wanted to send me there again. Awww... Thanks for helping me. Then he say that memandang kan we have no second rider, why not put each name at each other's bike? So i said ok la. Tapi for him, he have to wait till Sept cause by then dia aru lepas 22. LoL. So then Ah'Thur pun called dia. Then we met him then proceed to go to kedai Ahboy. He bought his kepala 125z and then we go to bugis to eat. We went to Tong Seng and ate. I ate Fish Soup Noodle, Ah'Thur Lor Mee and PGC makan Fried Wanton Noodle. Then skali PGC nyakat i. Grrrr.... Betol Nye gone case. Hehehe.... Then after that we went back to my place to take my bike. Ah'Thur and PGC pasang kepala baru 125z kat Ah'Thur's bike then i went back to take my jacket.

Then i proceed to Toa Payoh to meet the As A Sin Brothers. Sorry guys, i came late. Something came up. LoL. Jangan marah ehk. Saturday we will mit again for jamming session. Then after that i get back my ciggies from Eamon. Arghh!!! I tahan fer a day la seh. LoL. Then Eamon asked to teman him to MRT then after that, i bought a cheeseburger for myself then eat along the way. I bley sesat seh carik the block again!!! Wahaah.... Then i dah finally found the block then i sit down fer awhile. So tired...

Bai aS A Sin offered me to drink but i refuse to drink cause im riding uh. Lagypun promise PGC that i be back before 12 cause insurance mati uh. Starting from tomorrow onwards, i jadi budak JK plak. Wahahah... Then i reach home, checked my tagged and play poker for awhile. PGC, go sleep laa. U waking up early la seh. Wahahaha... No rain today. Haiyoh.... Wahahaha.

~A Day Goes So The Salah~

2009-03-17T03:58:00.004+08:00

I was suppose to go to the Ayer Rajah Bike Inspection but Faizal J Rider says too late cause they are closing at 4.45pm. So i guess i tak yah gi lor. Lagipun hujan so i better not. Then after that i bukak FM jap tapi its lagging like siow. Then i off it la. I asked Nadiya, ada plan pe malam ni. Then she says that kita go Woodlands jumpa budak budak kat sana. Then i said ok la. I went there around 10 like that.

First i met Eamon, Nadiya, Bem, Coffeetoon, Darul Wantanoo & Syafiq Kazuya. Then we play a little bit of game cards then after that we proceed to Marsiling to meet the rest. So many of them uh. I Lazy to mention the names. Hahaha.... Ni pun aru alik. So tired and cold. Syafiq was injured. Kesian dia. He baru accident on his bike. Dier nye injuries peh geli! eeeeee....

Then after we sat down, dah habis bobal and haf fun then i decided to like call up Freekz and asked her where she is. Cause im beginning to get bored. I tot she at Bukit Panjang. Then skali she went out with Khai nak amik Siti kat Wisma. Then she called me back and asked me where am i and how many people are there. Then i tell her total is 13. Tapi 4 naik motor. Then she asked sesaper nak ikut gi Yishun Dam, then ikut la. So when they reach, police also datang. So time delay. Then Syafiq was struggling to walk also. So i tell them la, i go and talk to Khai macam mana. And then here comes the best part......

I tanyer la Khai, satu orang injured and he wanted to follow la. Then Khai macam bingit2. I was like confuse la gitu. Then skali dier kata, " Sudah la.. Kalau dorang nak ikut, ikut la." Then he drove off. I was like terkejut ah. Apa sey buat i macam ni? Dah la i stop tengah tengah road. Then i called him up by Freekz's number. Then i scolded him la for being like that. Its like im trying to talk to him how and what todo skali dier macam ni. Tak leh ajak berunding nyer orang xia. Dah banyak kali dier buat macam ni at me. He called me back but i reject cause i wa trying to call Nadiya. Then after that, i saw his pick-up lorry just drove off just like that. Tunjukkan perasaan kaper? Perangai buruk xia.

Then after that i called Freekz. Then KecikDajal Arep yang angkat. Then i asked mana dorang nak pi then he say semua alik. Then i was like shocked la. Asal tak nak bawak Eamon skali? Kesian seh Eamon. Haiyoh. Then i called Nadiya. And you know what? She told me dorang maki Nadiya and the gang. I was like shocked gila babi uh. Asal seh patot buat cam tuh? Haiz. Perangai satu satu tak buley tahan. Then after i msg Khai. Tak tawu uh dier. Nak tak nak reply, dier nyer pasal uh.

Then i ride back home, Eamon pun ride his basikal home. Then i kept on thinking what happen just now. For me, i know we terhegeh hegeh tapi please wait for us to explain things. Don't just drive off or give them sign language. Its disappointing seh. I just cant take it anymore like that. Apa yang buruk, patut diubah. Apa yang baik, Alhamdulillah di amalkan selalu. Haiz. Hope you realise what you have done. Im not bad-mouthing you tapi please realise this before the whole world sees what kind of person u are. Im trying to make you a better man. =]

K laa. Its kinda late. Matapun dah keroh so i wanna rest... Tomorrow got new stories to tell. Wagagaggaga......

~After A Tiring Day~

2009-03-16T00:03:00.002+08:00

K laaa... I just came back from a very tiring day. Wow... I went to alot of places. I went to the escort. I was late rite? So i just go to the girl's nye side kat Sembawang. Itu pun leh sesat. Hahaha. Then i datang, salam semua then i see budak budak Problem's Child pun rama ehk. Tapi tak pernah nampak on the road pun. LoL. By the way, i met my old friend, Suzy Bomb, my ex-colleague from Airport. Dia sekarang kerja kat SMRT. I xchange number with her.

Then after that, Adi A.R.T ajak budak budak go Vivo. Today i was suppose to go and sleepover at PNG's house tapi i tak nak dulu uh cause we are fighting. Sorry Mama but i really cannot meet PNG dulu. I really had enuff of him for making me embarass in public or in FM. So i went to join in with my budak budak motor. Bukan selalu boleh macam ni. Its like once in a blue moon nak tengok kita macam ni. So on the way there, hujan turun la seh! Adi A.R.T kata tadi nak rempuh hujan. Tros dier yang stop dulu. Hahahha....

We stopped kat underbridge SLE. Punya la belo satu satu! Hahahha... We were practically playing on the roads and throwing oranges! Mana plak orange tuh semer datang. Kecoh xia. Pictures are downloaded. You guys should see it!!

Then we proceed to Vivo bila dah reda. Tapi the rain start lagy around kat Outram. Wahduh... Punya la kuyup satu satu. Then dah sampai Vivo, masok dalam Vivo and it was so damn cold! Hahahaha. Then we jalan jalan then we go buy LJS then we makan. Skali nak balik, we saw Shufflers. Ada orang kai seluar baggy gila and it was in my feveret colour! Black and hot pink. Tapi sayang nyer, lelaki yang pakai. Hahahaha... Then, we smoke then most of them alik. Me, Adi A.R.T and Elmo A.R.T pergi Lido Mac to lepak. Then after that i proceed Hougang to meet Eamon and his friend Mus. Chill jap then off i go back. Too tired.

So as i was saying, pictures are uploaded. So see how much fun i had....!!!

*~I Loike This Shoe.. Apoh~*

~It Was Awesome~

2009-03-15T08:28:00.005+08:00

I went to the Chong Pang CC. I parked my bike at Bukit Panjang and i went there with Eamon. It was drizzling and i don't know how to go there. So i went with Eamon, taking a BUS! LoL. Jarang xia nak dengar lilin naik bus. And then, dah sampai i saw lots of Motorbikes and designz. I was like WOAH! Should have bring my bike along.

So we were there to support S.L.Y. It was a great concert. S.L.Y came in last and the group that came in the first place was Simply Young. They were great but i missed their performance. So after that, my friends all plan to lepak uh. And you guys wanna know? For the first time, i saw Zax aS A Sin. Wahahahaha. Pernah chat dengan dia ajer but never ever see him before. So i go back ngan Eamon and Khai to take my bike at Eamon's place then i go back.

Once i reach home, sempat main poker jap kat tagged. Wahahahaha. Then i tk jadi naik motor. Khai pick me up by his pick up and after he fetch me, we went to fetch Eamon and the rest. Then we proceed to Khatib Jetty. We then lepak. We sing and played the guitar. Luckily i bring my book of chords. Kalau tak, i dunno what to play. After we got bored, we bergerak from that place and then go to Punggol to meet the other friends pancing. After around 5:43am, kita bergerak alik cause Khai nak hantar pick up bapak nya back. I reach home around dah nak kul 7am. Arghh!!! So late!

For your info, something happen at Chongpang CC just now and it was kinda of a great news. I met this guy name Atong and he and his friend were giving out this flyers for underground music bands. You know what? This coming 21st March, me and the band mates are going to this PUB to go and survey the place that we ae performing. Wow!!!! We are going to have a small meeting. Imagine! A public show for aS A Sin!! Gerek la seh! Harap impian i tercapai! Then you know what, at first they dunno i got a band. Skali when i say i play the bassist, dorang tak caya. They tot i small kid ehk? Wahahahhaa. And then when i say i also bring bike, lagi they tot i bawak kereta mainan?! Aiyoh... They tot i minah ehk? Minat rempit ada la! Wahahha...

K laa. I gtg. Dah lambat seh nak go escort. Elmo A.R.T dah marah marah. And now im going to Marsiling Rise. After that go to my childhood's wedding plak. Shahidah, my twin is getting married!! And im still single! So the salah. Oh Well, jodoh tak kemana. Rileks beb....

~What Fcuked Up Day~

2009-03-14T07:42:00.003+08:00

I really hate Friday 13 for a good reason. Never ever mit up the ones that u care... Wahha..... It happen again. Last time, if i met my guy on Friday 13, i would surely break up. Wakakaka... Tapi ni seme takdir Allah...

And bloody idiot keyboard. I keep on typo seh. Some letters kadang kadang werking. Ok Yesterday, i went to Johor with Reez, budak biker boyz. LoL. Kene hujan la seh. I went there to isi minyak and tukar jetting motor. Now can start dengan agak senang. It cost me RM43. Then after that i went to Ajai's house. I went there and Mama asked me to go and cut up chicken. So i go and cut two bloody large chicken. LoL. Hakiim Bem was there too. And then we all ate Ayam Masak Kicap. Before that, i talked to Ajai about my life. And then he said that he finally understands about what happen in my life after watching one of my vidz kat youtube. And then i thought that he understands....

Yes, its my fault that i never overnight at Ajai's place cause i was dying to meet KecikDajal Arep cause dah lama tak nampak dier. So i just tell Ajai la that i meeting budak Bukit Panjang. Then he was not happy. Sorry about that but i can't be like melupakan kawan lama i kat Bukit Panjang. I know them WAY before i know you. And that was like last year May ke June? Haiz. You always don't Understand me. But what the heck.... Malam at FM was disasterous.

Khai bukak FM and then he wanted to LOG OFF oready cause nak mit budak lepak. So I offer myself to take over la cause i dah lama tak jadi DJ. I knew out of sudden that its a mistake but i just shrugged it off. Then i play the songs, then people nak dedi, and it was all so busy. I kekok cause jarang seh i jadi DJ. And then i received a PM msg. "Asal you tak layan i?" "Sudah laa tak der orang nak layan i" And then that fella still wanna go out from FM. Eh, ingat eh. I support you when you bukak FM cause i nak beri u semangat. Ni tidak. Haiz... Where is the support xia...

Cut short the story, that fella bukak our private lives problem into main FM sampai semua orang tawu kita gaduh. MALU xia!!!!! And i didn't know that after he get to know me, he bilis this girl that likes him just because he wants me. That girl pun dah confessed kat main and i was like WOAH!!! So selama ni yang kau hulur hulur konek kau tuh cerita benar laa. It was true after all. After all this while yang u kata that it wasn't and it was for fun, rupa rupa nya dorang dua ada cerita. And because of me, dier bilis that gal, which is close to me. Haizz.... I was darn shocked but what to do. The funny thing is that lilin yang tak buat salah, dia suruh lilin turun Changi to meet him? Farny xia! Orang semua suruh buat bodoh. Lilin tak nak dilabel lemah pada lelaki yang tak gunakan akal untuk berkata kata. And shocking thing, that gal can still say, "Eamon yang tunggu kan Lilin dah nak dekat setahun takder la seteruk macam kau". Yup.. Eamon waited and sabar with me cause i told him im not ready for a relationship. As the saying goes, orang sabar tak rugi. I really dunno why si dektuh kelam kabut nah nak masok in relationship with me. He still dunno me yet seh. Well, i did cry and the whole FM dengar. Tak pernah pernah Lilin cry on FM xia. Haiz.... And then he left me a msg at my handphone, "Pape jadi jgn pandang mayat i atau nk carik!" Even his mum msg but i could not do anything. He really hurt me alot. He always ask me to walk away from his life. I don't want but if he wants, why ask me to do it xia!? From the people's view that witness at the FM, saw that he was trying to force myself to LOVE him. This view did not come from me, but this is what they told me. Tak tawu malu ker? Hal kita babitkan orang? Kesian Fanna kene macam gitu. U tak tawu per jaga maruah orang? Haiz...

Whatever it is. I still sabar. Whatever happens, happens la. You always want me to kejar u. But not this tyme. People already told me ive given u too much chance and face. I tak nak jadi bodoh and naive. I tawu i bukan cari alasan for not getting myself attached. Is just that i lom capai impian dan cita cita i dan belom habiskan tanggungjawab i terhadap kedua mama and papa i. I just need someone that could really understand me.

Dah laa.. Itu ajer Lilin nak ceritakan pasal semalam. And For Your Info, thanks fer making me feel like this. It makes us drift apart even further. I know that you shower me with gifts, but that is like buying my love. Play fair like the others. They don't buy, but they feed me with love. Memang they know its hurtful for me not to be with them but if that makes me happy, then they are happy. Thanks Kiah n Eamon for the understanding. You both make my life whole lot better. I don't need a relationship to be happy, tapi i just need a friend to talk out my problems.

*~Apa you kata? You tak nak carik lain perempuan? Get REAL! Tak caya la beb! I know you all too well. This is just a saying to threathen me eh. I don't think its working. I really don't want to fall into anymore tricks anymore~*

~Nothing Better Else To Do But To Post My Blog~

2009-03-12T22:37:00.005+08:00

Well, today i woke up at 8:30Am.... So siang seh. I Just got back my old self. LoL. So i went for my class 3 prac just now and i think i dah upgrade to prac 2. Wheee.... Lagy pn tadi my usual instructor take me. Actually was suppose to be hys fren. But my usual instructor nye student tak datang so i am under hym. Yay! So we go the usual practice. And i always kacau him and threathen hym to go to expressway. Hehehe... Dia slalu takot. He is nice instructor. I always feel comfortable under hym. LoL. Then after that he tipu me, he says he no bike and planning to take. Padahal, dia ada motor la seh. Motor dia lagy besar plak tuh. Idiot hym! Nak kena seh dia.

K then after that, I went to Eamon's place. Thought that Freekz and Lina at home. Skali, they went out. So i met Eamon, chill fer awhile then i went to Jurong Point to buy some Sushi. Teringin pulak nak makan Unagi Sushi.. Yummies! Then met Freekz and her secondary friends, Abu, Fadil and James. They are friendly. Then they wanted to go to Lot 1 and i decided to go back. So tired. I went to Donut Empire and ate a Donut filled with butter cream. Yummies! And then i went back home.

Btw, just now before proceeding to Jurong Point, terserempak Matin, my ex on the road. He asked to stop first. Haiz. Macam takder cara seh he stoppe me. Haiz. Takper la kan. Biar kau takder cara as long that aku tak macam kau. He asked me to pay up my saman and then i tell him i need to settle my motor before 18/03/2009. Haiz. Hope that he wouldn't be so rude to me. Let bygones be bygones uh. Biler mau game....

Actually tonight wanted to go Dbl O but im really too tired. I don't feel like going today. Sorry Sic and Kino. I really no energy to go also. Have fun u guys k.

K lahh.... Im going to play poker, find new guitar chords then after that i play guitar then nak cleep.

~My First Entry Blog~

2009-03-12T15:27:00.002+08:00

First of all, i should like to thank Khai for doing my background for this blog of mine. Seriously, without him, i wouldn't be able to start to have my first blog. Wheee...!!!

And secondly, i would like to start of by saying HI to everyone and the willingness to read up my blog. Hopefully those haters or spammers wont come here.... Hahaha...

Ok laa... So far today, i got practical class 3 at BBDC at 1815Hours and im ready to go and drive a car. Aiyoh... So leceh seh.. Seriously, i prefer to take class 2a but my mum is the one forking out the license so i have to take what she wants Lor....

So after prac actually nak go JB cause yesterday tak menjadi. My bike is giving me alot of problems. Cant start smoothly la seh. But then i just got an MSN from someone that malam ni go Dbl O. Hmmm... Lama jugak seh tak club. Maybe tonight i go Dbl O then tomorrow i go JB with my friend. That's all set... Hehehe...

So cheerios guys! I will try my best to post in entries for my blogs so u guys will have a simple view of what type of person i am..

PuTeRiLiLiN

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CONSEQUENCES OF LYING. I know you never think about it.

*~Nearly Had An Accident~*

*~Finally Typing Away Again....~*

*~Bloody Hell.. Im So Tired~*

*~Im Beginning To Love My Life....~*

*~Rezeki Ku Berlimpah Limpah TIdak Berhenti... Ku Akan Berkata ALHAMDULLILAH~*

*~My Days As A RO~*

*~Finally The Promotion Im Waiting For...~*

*~Fark EU~*

*~Yawn.....~*

*~Farking Cock up uh SKRG!~*

*~Im Farking Bored~*

*~Ive Been Promoted~*

*~Just came back from werk~*

*~No Comment~*

*~Never Ever~*

LOST! FED UP!

*~I dunno why~*

*~Damn So Tired~*

*~Loving parents that i have~*

*~Escort Team Double Trouble~*

*~My Life So Just Trying To Be Myself And Do Things MY WAY~*

*~If We Are Not Meant To Be Together, Then We Are Not. Im Tired Of Forcing Myself~*

*~Werking life is what i like~*

A song.... For u guys to remember if im gone from this world...

*~Today tiring~*

*~AARrrggghhHHhhh.....~*

*~Why Seh?~*

*~MY SUEY NITE~*

*~Updates Of My Bike~*

*~No Comments~*

*~My favourite Song~*

*~Im Really Serious~*

*~So Tired~*

*~Im So Busy & Love Hubby Alot~*

*~First Nite At Werk~*

*~Got A Job Liao~*

*~Spending My Time With Larlink~*

*~Will A Friend Always Be There For US?~*

*~Had Fun With Larlink~*

*~A Past Is A Past~*

*~Recipe goes wrong i guess~*

*~A Note For That Someone~*

*~I Don't Even Care~*

*~Guys Are The New Bitches!~*

*~Me And Darling At Marina Barrage~*

*~My Birthday Day Goes On~*

*~Muhd Saiful N Emielia~*

*~Really Don't Understand What People Wants~*

*~What Should I Do Rite Now~*

*~Bad Day~*

*~It Was A Success~*

*~Let Go Of Me Peacefully~*

*~Why You Have To Do This To Me~*

*~Fighting And Crying~*

*~Im So Damn Sleepy and Tired~*

*~Just A Story~*

*~One Tiring Farking Day~*